Sunday, November 7, 2010

A Word of Comfort to One and All

  Of late I have read of so many of my friends here  having loved ones crossing over to next world.
I know that no words can really ease the pain that is in ones heart.
I pray that this poem with bring to you a measure of the comfort it has brought to me over the years.
Til the pain starts to ease alittle
may the love and friendship of all your friends
be of great comfort to you
Hugs Lil Sam

To Those I Love and Those Who Loved Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go
So I can move into my afterglow.
I have so many things to see and do.
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears,
Let’s be happy that we had so many years.

I gave to you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown,
But now it’s time I traveled on alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must;
It’s only for awhile that we must part,
Then let your grief be comforted, with trust.

I won’t be far away, for life goes on;
And if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can’t see me or touch me, I’ll be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you’ll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way, alone
I’ll greet you with a smile and say,

“”Welcome Home”


Author unknown

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Hiding My Tears

Hiding My Tears

The days and weeks have been so very long since last I saw my Sailor Man.
As time stretch's on, it becomes harder and harder on my Sailor Man
Every 3 - 4 weeks Sailor is  lucky to be
 within signal range.
We then have 2 days where we can chat together.

Tonight the Captain and my Sailor shared a night on the town.
After swapping tall tales, and downing a few pints,
The calls to home started.
At times I was not to sure with whom I spoke,
Most times it was my Sailor Man, Other times The Captain,

I heard the pain and loneliness in my Sailor Man's voice.
How I longed to put my arms around him,
To hold him and ease the pain in his heart.
At times it is so hard to sound cheerful,
I dare not let him know
How it breaks my heart to hear him hurting so,
My Sailor tells me how proud he is of me,
For being so strong while he is away.
I may be able to fool my Sailor Man
But there is no fooling the Captain
For it seems he heard in my voice
what I was able to keep from my Sailor Man.
Captain assured me what he heard in my voice
would stay between us.
and he would continue to take care of my Sailor Man
It seems I have a new friend,
for which I am truly grateful

I thanked the Captain for his friendship,
And when the calls were finished,
I like the wee kitten
hid my face in my arms,
and lit the tears fall
Then headed for the sea.

I am so thankful for my beloved ocean
for once again her fierceness embraced me,
She took my tears once more
and helped ease some of the pain that's in my heart

Once more she took my weakness
Replacing it with her own strength.
Re-enforcing once again,
That anything can be over come,
if only we believe it is so.

So here I sit
With strength renewed
Ready to lift the Spirits of
My Sailor Man
when he calls  again.

Hold tight to your loved ones my dear friends,
and thank you one and all
for listening to me
yet again
Lil Sam

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Happy LOL's Day

Search lite

A little Search lite to help light the way for all Lurkers.
We all have been there,
Been afraid to post.
Thanks to Bonnie for starting this wonderful day.
It has helped so many of us.
So Welcome all my fellow Lurkers
and  a very
Happy Love Our Lurker's Day to everyone.

Lil Sam

Ups and Downs


I am stuck here in Canada,
The end of Julywe ran into an immigration officer that we were warned about.
The officer got it into her head that I was already living in the US
She raised a stink, and now I have to stay in Canada til my Green Card comes through.
Thank goodness my sailor man can still come up here.
but every time she is on duty, he is pulled over and the car is searched.
We have found out that there are 8 others that she picks on,
and no one knows why.
This we found out from our Lawyer.
My sailorman has been out to sea since Aug 1st.
Will be here with me the middle of December.

Spirits of the Sea

Hello my Dear Friends

No I have not forgotten you, How could I.
You were there when I came to you as a confused and lost soul.
I was so afraid of what the reception might be,
But I thought,
Hey, I've been shot down before,
Can not get shot down much lower than I already am,
What  a WONDERFUL surprise I got.
For you all...
You accepted me as I was,
Took me under you wing,
Reassured me,
Comforted me,
Lifted me up
Guided me
Helped me grow

You have shared my ups and down,
the good times and not so good.

I know that I have been gone for some time, and alot has happened.
My sailor man knows I blog, and has asked me not to blog when he is home,
He does not really like the idea of me sharing our life with others.
So I keep a journal of what I do during the day while he is gone,
It seems to satisfy him, for he no longer asks if I blog, so I do not offer
So I lurk in the shadows of your blogs,
And spend as much time with my beloved sea as possible.
There have been some nasty fits thrown down at the sea  of late.
Hence the sea picture.

Yes the girl is me throwing a hissy fit.
and my stern sailorman throwing  the lightening at me
He knows I love the lightening, but
I really do not want the effects of that lightening when he gets home,
but I know I will get it,
and I really do deserve it.

My Sailorman was ill for awhile and was getting worse
His captain put him ashore the end of June and made him see a Dr.
I left work and went home to him and we saw the Dr. together to get the results.
First thing she said was,"you are lucky you are alive!"
Turns out that my love is a diabetic,
his sugar had been up  around 1250 for a very long time.
that is why he kept falling asleep,
and could not remember doing some things.
we now have him back on his feet and back to work,
and being himself  once more
Which is not good for me,
As you all know, I am a slow learner

I try not to be cranky when he phones,
which is not often due to no signal,
I know it is not easy for him either,to be away
And yes there have been a few times,
Okay alot of times....
when I have not heard the warning tone or his warning
that is until it is to late..
then his"Baby Girl, You are in big trouble" 
finally gets through.
So then it is back down to the beach,
It always amazes me, how an angry sea can take away all of
my anger,most of my frustration,
Lift my spirits again and help me carry on.
What has also helped me alot,
is being able to read your blogs late at night when sleep eludes me.
Please forgive me for not blogging before now, but had I blogged they would have been
very angry ones.
Thank you for being there,
for just being my friend.

Megga hugs to you and yours

Lil Sam


Sunday, April 25, 2010

CONTENTED..for now Part Two

CONTENTED ... for now


A Well Spanked
Contented Wife
Well my last post was all about the Friday that I got home.
The spanking that I received was for my very bad attitude on St Paddy's day.
And of falling asleep in my husbands arms, a well spanked and contented wife.

Part Two

Now Saturday morning I awoke to my sailor nibbling on my neck,
Rubbing his coarse beard over my shoulders and neck.
He knows that drives me wild.
His work rough hands stroking my back,
down over my hips,my butt,thighs, inner thighs,
back up my thighs to my butt.
Squeezing,and teasing.

He soon has me squirming and wanting to be taken over his knee
Sailor pulls me over onto my side,
just enough for the big pillow to be put in place
He helps me roll over onto the pillow
I arch my butt towards his hand,
waiting for that first gentle smack.
"Oh No, me Baby Girl," says he to me.
You'll no be enjoying this spanking.
At least not to start.

Have you forgotten your fib to me,
by error of omission.
The truth I learned from your Granddaughter.
I told you this transgression
would be written in me book. that we would talk about it.
(Damn his steel trap memory, and book)
(I did not say that to him though)
And talk about it,we did,
or rather he talked about it,
and I listened
as he paddled my already sore backside,

Well after 20 or 30 sound smack
Sailor man put the paddle down
and was gently and soothingly rubbing my very red butt.

Very shortly I found myself pulled to the edge of the bed,
And with an urgency that matched my own
My sailor man and I lovingly gave
of ourselves to each other.

Later as I lay cradled in his arms,
We talked about our life together.
And how it is at the moment.
And how it will be in the future
when I am finally home for good.

The main thing I have to remember is that
there are Two of us in this relationship.
That we share everything,good and bad,
No matter if we are together or apart.
as long as we are always open
and honest with each other,
and discuss things,
then our love
will always see us through.
And I know that my sailor man will always
help keep me on the right path.

While I am in Canada, and He is in the US
I make sure that I visit my Beloved Ocean
 least every other day.
And at least once a day
we speak on the phone.

CONTENTED.... for now

for now

First of all,
I want to say Hello,
to all my friends.
I have missed you all so much.
It has been very busy here of late.
Work has picked up once more,
and I have been kept very busy.
Also have found an apt,
and my roommate and I are in the process of moving.
doing most of it after I get home from work
I did finally have a chance to go home for a few days,
if nothing else.
Home to the safe harbour of my husbands arms and love.

The boat ride seemed to take forever.
But finally we were pulling into harbour.

As I stood on deck waiting for the ship to dock
my heart did a double flip
For I have spotted my sailor man
Standing alone on the shore
with only the gulls soaring above
I know he saw me, for he waved to me,
and his smile was a welcoming beacon
for a very lonely wife.

It seemed to take forever for the boat to dock,
but finally we were tied to the dock
As we disembarked and made our way to Customs,
I could have sworn that
everyone on board ship
was in front of me,
and walking as slow as possible.
How I wish I could sprout winds
There he is.
Standing in the exit doorway
His smile seemed to light up the whole room
My eyes could only see the light in his
and the brightness of his smile.
My heat fills with so much joy and love,
and sure I am that is will burst.
My heart is beating  like a thousand base drums.
And sure I am that everyone can hear it's beat

Then the strangest thing happened,
I felt someone nudging me.
Telling me that I was next.
But, how could this be,
for sure I am,
that everyone on board ship
is in front of me.
I realize that the Customs Agent is calling me as well.

The Custom's Agent then says to me,
"You seem a tad distracted,Ma'am"
"Would it have anything to do with the gentleman
whose pacing in yonder doorway!?"
All I could do was blush, and say "Oh Yes."
(And me who never blushes)

I try very hard to concentrate on his questions,
and do manage to answer them all,
with him only having to draw my attention back
a time or two.

Finally he says to me,( with twinkling eyes)
"Well little Lady, I believe you best be on your way,
to the gentleman who is so patiently awaiting you"
"And, Have a good evening."

Well, I believe I must have flowen from there to my sailor's arms,
for I no remember walking to him.
and nothing ever felt so go, nor as welcome
as when his arms wrapped so lovingly and protectively around me,
and his lips met mine,
and our heartbeats became as one.
The thundering sound of our  heartbeats
seemed to have been joined
by the applauding of my fellow passengers.
It seems they all heard my sailor man say

"Welcome home Wife."

I am safe,
I am loved and protected.
I am home,

There were many people waiting for us when we arrived home.
Seems all my new friends and family had come to welcome me home,
if only for a short visit.
There were lots of teasing, laughter,and  hugs and a fantastic pot luck supper.

As sailor man and I did clean up,
He slid behind me,
and held me so close
that I could feel his heartbeat.
Soon his hands were wondering
lovingly and passively over me,
teasing my bottom with gentle and suggestive squeezes and rubs,
and gentle swats from time to time.
Was not long before my jeans were sliding down over my hip,
and from there it was a very short trip to being over his knee.
the spanking was pleasurable,
that was soon to change.
Sailor reminded my of my very bad attitude on St Paddy's Day,
And that he had warned me several time to watch my attitude,
But, I had paid him no never mind.
I told my sailor man I was very sorry, and tried to explain.
he said my apology was accepted,
but that it would not get me out of
the spanking I had earned.
The spanking then changed,
His gentle hand became hard as steel.
As sailor continued to lecture me about my attitude
he switched to a paddle,
I kept telling him I was sorry,
and he kept saying I was indeed going to be very sore( sorry).

Then suddenly his hand was once again
very gentle and loving.

I slid from his knees to pleasure my husband
to show him how much I love and respect him
and how grateful I am
that he cares and loves me so much
that he will take me in hand when need be,
and not allow me to get into these snits
and get away with them.

Our love making is always great,
But this night it was out of this world

The last thing I remember as I drifted of to sleep,
Was my sailor man pulling me just a tad closer to him,
(if that was possible)
I feel so warm and safe in his arms,
I am surrounded by his love and protection.
I am home.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Blogging Family

Our Blogging Family
During the last few days I have been asked what the Spanking Community was like.
Were they really supportive, or was that just talk.

I tried to explain how we support each other.
Never crittical, but always encouraging.
Never judgemental, always supportive
Said the first blog I saw was Bonnie's,  then Hermione's
And from there the friendships just kept growing.

I found a poem, in which I have change a few words.
But for me, it sums up how I see my Blogging Family

Through days of tears and laughter
We found a time to share.....
The days, the months, the years,have formed a kinship
that's beautiful and rare,

Our hearts were made to coincide -
God planned our roles on Earth.....
He created us as  family -
By Love and Friendship - not through our birth.

original poem by author unknown

Saturday, March 20, 2010

A Very Slow Learnef

The Calm Sea after the Storm
Slow learner

Well I am now in trouble BIG TIME
Seems sailor was IM'ing with my granddaughter,
And she spilled the beans

When ever sailor and I talked, I have always been able to
as he puts it wiggle away from something I do not want to talk about.
And that is exactly what I have been doing for some time, when it came to questions about my health.
I always had a sneeky feeling that he did not believe me.

Well in this mornings email there was a big one liner
then my granddaughter emailed and said "Sorry ", I thought he Knew.

I seem to be such a slow learner,
And just do not listen to the voices of the spirits.

With work the way it was going,
and other life problems,

Instead of going down to the ocean,
I tried to handle everything alone,
and ended up getting very badly run down

Even when I was home in February,
I was able to wiggle out of questions,
Only because we had so much
going on.

By the time I did get to the beach,
The tide seemed to be so far out,
And I felt as though I was stranded on a sandbar,
With an angry sea between me and the shore
I had no choice but to stop and listen ,
I sat down on the wet sand and cried,
and begged for the healing help of the sea

And ...........

My beloved ocean recued me once again
And as the waves abosorbed my tears,
and gently teased my toes

She entered my heart and soul, and made me hear ,
that which I needed to hear.

She removed the chains of doubt from my mind and heart.
Showed me the special man that I am married to.
She restored my balance and my strength,
Then showed me the path back to shore,

Seems one must become lost,
in order to find their way.

So now with feet back firmly on the ground,
I phoned my sailor,

I explained to him what has been going on,
And that having never had someone that ever stood beside me,
I just naturally tried to handle things alone.
And in doing so, for a time I forgot him, and the sea.

We talked along time,
We cried together,
And we laughed.

Then he said we would discuss this further, when I do get home.
I asked him if this was another entry in his darn book
He said yes, but the sentence would be reduced,
But I would not be let off the hook
Sailor said that I have to learn that there are two of us now
to handle all problems.

Perhaps once I am home to stay,
having someone to share things with will become natural to me.

I sure hope so.

I am so very lucky to have such a loving and caring husband
One who is so patient with me
And who I know deep in my heart ,
will always be there for me and for us.
I just have to remember that.

My friend Dr Ken once said to me:

Sure, the tide ebbs...
but it always flows back in,
and when it does,
it can be overwhelming and fulfilling
and he hoped I always found high tide...

Well I do have alot of high tides, but also many low ones
but since I met all of you wonderful friends
The low ones are easier to deal with, cause there is always someone to talk to.

Hugs to all
Lil Sam

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The Luck of the Irish....NOT!

The Luck of the Irish
Well I have gone and done it now. I am in trouble big time.
Wednesday,Saint Paddy's Day was not a good one for me.
And the so called Luck of the Irish just got up and Left me to my own devices.
Not good idea.
Sailor and I are on web-cam every morning and evening.

So St Paddies Day started out with minor misunderstanding with sailor, and him telling me that I was lucky that I am getting over the flue, otherwise he would be making note of my bad attitude.

Well now it does appear that I just might not be the Brightest Shamrock in the Garden.
Because just before I signed off to leave for work,
My brain disengaged and my mouth engaged.

Not good. For I told sailor he could stuff his book.

I guess I was not really paying attention, for I did not see the look he gave me, and he said to me,
 "Baby Girl, You is in trouble, big time,"

Now the average wife would apologies and keep the mouth shut..Right...Not
I have to have last word so I say," Yeah right!" and sign off.

Well my day went from bad to worse, trouble with clients, car acted up.
Went to class at 6:30 and had 2 bad coughing spells during class.
Was late home from class, short chat with hubby and off to bed.

Did not sleep very well. Woke up Thursday morning in a very bad mood.
Which is very very unusual for me.

Anyway, sailor was already on web-cam when I came on-line.
Asked him what the hell he was doing up so early.
He said I see my baby girl is not in any better mood this morning.
And once more warned me to watch my attitude.
I said Or what.

That is when I realized  that I had slept in, he was not early I was late, Said oh Sh-- , have to go, and ran,

Well when I got home tonight, there was message.


So now I Wait for sailor to get home and back on-line.
I know my beloved Sailor man will not discuss the past few days, but I also know he will not forget.
And when I get home again, I am in soooooooooooo much trouble.
I would send him a sweet letter of apologia, but I know that would not help.

Anyone out there know how I can save some of the hide on my bottom end?

No,eh. Oh well  guess in time I will have to face the music
Please keep me in your thoughts.

Tis a tad late  for Saint Paddies Day
But may this Blessing be with all
every day

An Old Irish Blessing

May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.

May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.

May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.

May all life's passing seasons
bring the best to you and yours


Lil Sam

Thursday, March 11, 2010

A New and Exciting Year

WOW 2010
I have gone over anonther post, seems I have used this pixie before.
I Like Angels and Pixies, Pixies have a very special meaning for me.

Here I am in March already , sure do not know were the time has gone.
So much has happened so far this year,

First of all, I hope that this post finds all my friends, and those that I have yet to meet,are well and happy.

I visited A Marines Wife's blog today. She has an awesome blog.
Welcome my friend

Will be checking in with all my friends and their blogs soon. Have missed you all.
Please forgive me for neglecting you.

Well my husband got to Canada the middle of January for 3 days, not long but better than none.
Then I was able to go home  to him in February for 5 glorious days.
We spent our first Valentines day together.

In my last post, I spoke of my friend and her question about the ocean.
Well, I am working hard to be a better friend, and to listen more closely.
My friend and I have been making more time to be together this year.
As a result we have enjoying many walks together,as well as many long talks.
I have found new ways of drawing her out, and getting her to talk more.

I explained to her, my intrest in Wicca and what it stands for,
What it means to me.
Introduced her to the strength of my beloved Ocean,
and to the Peace and tranquility of the forest.
My friend said the other day that she now understand
How the ocean gives me strength and renews my spirit.
She  now also enjoys fully the peace and tranquility that we share
as we walk through the forest.
My friend and I have always shared a special bond,
But we now seem to have a new bond , one that is stronger,like that of sisters. 
She now feels freer to lean on me during her troubled time
especially right now, with her  husband ailing.

As for me, I  am in the process of helping my roommate find an apt. that she can afford on her own.
Once she is settled then I can take care of me.
I am hoping to be able to move home to my sailor man permanently by the end of summer.
But time will tell.

Until then,
I shall continue to enjoy the adventures of life,
and all that it has to offer.
Both the ups and downs.
I will continue to protect all that I hold dear,
Family,Friends, and all of nature,
And when all is said and done
I know the arms of my sailor man await me.
And in them a safe and happy harbour awaits.
To all 
Blessed Be