Friday, November 13, 2015

Happy Love Our Lurkers Day

  Happy LOL Day everyone
Wow it sure has been along time since I last posted.
it has been a very busy 2 yrs for me.
Last year was an eye opener for me,
I spent most of it recovering
from a badly broken ankle ,
Learnt  what it was like
to have my independence and mobility
 as I journeyed from
 a wheelchair,
to a walker,
to crutches
to cane.
The first op was to put a plate in
the fibula and 2 large screws in the tibia
the 2nd to remove the 2 screws
due to complication,
 had to run the gauntlet  x2
Being an RCA,
I have always tried to make
things better for those whose independence is
compromised for whatever reason.
But this experience  taught me
2015 started off okay,
then hubby took sick.
that was a long 3 months.
he is now back at sea
I will be so glad when he finally retires
Best part of this year has been
My daughter and I reuniting after
a long 6yrs of not communicating.
and now I anxiously await
As my daughter and two youngest Grandchildren
will be joining me here in the states for Christmas.
Hope this finds you all well and happy
 Blessed Be
Your friend
Lil Sam

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Happy Spankmas Everyone

Just stopping by to wish all of my friends a very Happy and Merry  Spankmas,
May all your wishes and dreams come true.
Blessed be Everyone
Hugs lil Sam

'Twas the night before Spankmas, when all through the house

Not an implement was stirring, not even tawse;

The paddles were hung by the chimney with care,

In hopes that Spanking Claus soon would be there;

The Lovely Laura and Crowe were nestled all snug in their corners,

While visions of red bottoms danced in their heads;

And Kitty in her corset, and I with my strap,

Had just settled down for some long winter's slaps,

When out there in the yard there arose such a clatter,

I jumped from the bench to see what was the matter.

Over to the window I flew like a flash,

Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.

The moon shone on the new-fallen snow

Giving the shine of mid-day to objects below,

When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,

But a big ol' sled, and eight reindeer,

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,

I knew in a moment it must be Spanking Claus.

Quicker than shit they came,

And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name;

"Now, Lily! now, Jolie! now, Munchkin and Deb!

On, Crus! on Zelle! on, Sarahnade And Andaussiegirladl !

To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!

Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!"

So up to the roof they flew,

With the load full of toys, and Spanking Claus too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof

The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.

As I drew in my head, and was turning around,

Down the chimney Spanking Claus came with a bound.

He was dressed all in leather, from his head to his foot,

And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot;

A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,

And he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.

His eyes -- how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!

His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!

His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,

And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow;

The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,

And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath;

He had a broad face and a little round belly,

That shook, when he laughed like a bowlful of jelly.

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,

And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself;

A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,

Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread;

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,

And filled all the stockings with implements and toys,

And laying his finger aside of his nose,

And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose;

He sprang to his sled, to his team gave a whistle,

And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.

But I heard him exclaim, as he drove out of sight,

"Happy Spankmas to all, and to all a good-night."

Thursday, November 15, 2012


I know that this is off topic for this site, but you wonderful people have shared so much of my life,
that I felt a great need to share this  with you.
Blessed Be my dear friends


I try not to take anything for granted, but I am  after all, only human,

I am truly one of the luckiest and richest women alive.
I have the most wonderful, down to earth husband, with whom
I share a most joyous and unconditional love and respect.


We have a small simple home in the country,
and the necressities of life.
We have many friends who say they feel so welcome and at home in our home.


My husband is a chief engineer on Tug boats.
As a result,  he is out at sea alot.
But when he is home we are almost always together.
We work together both inside and outside our home.
We share a love of the outdoors,
Whether it be walking on the beach watching a sun rise
or sitting on our front porch watching the sun set.
Many an evening  will find us curled up together sharing a bowl of popcorn
and watching a movie.

Me being a typical wife,
I revel in the love we share and the simple joys of life.
Knowing in my heart of hearts that we will always be together.
That when our time comes to cross over, we will go together.
(What a Dreamer)




I had not been sleeping well for several nights.
Each time that I awoke,
my love was in the forefront of my thoughts.
I knew in my heart that he was in grave danger.

Once again I turned to the God and Goddess of the mighty Seas.
The sea was angry, and I knew it would be many times worse where my love was.
As i stood there with tears on my face, and my feet in the cold angry sea,
I told the  Spirits of the fear that was in my heart.
I begged them, Please spare my love his life, and the lives of his shipmates.

Once again my Beloved Ocean wrapped her love and strength around me, giving me the strength and courage that I would need to deal with whatever was to come.
Reminding me yet again, of who was in charge.


Then early one morning the call came.
I heard the trembling voice of my husband.
He said to me," We are safe, but I was scared."

My love does not scare easily, but this time he was very much afraid.
I so desperately wanted to reach through the phone and wrap him in the safe harbour of my arms, and hold him close until the trembling stopped, and  once again he felt safe and secure.

For several days they had worn their survival suites,
being tossed around on the angry seas.
Till finally the Coast Guard airlifted them to safety.

As I sit here several days later, waiting for time to pass to go pick my husband up from the airport,
I think of how very close we came to being separated permanently.
Our life thus far flashes ever so quickly through my thoughts.
I see the void our love for each other has filled,
I also see the void that would return should I forever lose the love of my life.
Once again I am reminded of  how precious and short life is
and that I must not take a single moment of it for granted.


So when I pick my husband up, I will rejoice in the knowledge that we are once more securely wrapped in the unconditional love that we find in the safe harbour of each others arms.

I thank the Angels for  watching over my husband and the his shipmates.
I humbly thank the God and Goddess of the Mighty Seas for sparing their lives.

So my friends, live life to the fullest, rejoice in the simple joys and pleasures of life.
Try to never take for  granted the wondrous Blessings the we are given each and every day.


Blessed Be

Sunday, November 7, 2010

A Word of Comfort to One and All

  Of late I have read of so many of my friends here  having loved ones crossing over to next world.
I know that no words can really ease the pain that is in ones heart.
I pray that this poem with bring to you a measure of the comfort it has brought to me over the years.
Til the pain starts to ease alittle
may the love and friendship of all your friends
be of great comfort to you
Hugs Lil Sam

To Those I Love and Those Who Loved Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go
So I can move into my afterglow.
I have so many things to see and do.
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears,
Let’s be happy that we had so many years.

I gave to you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown,
But now it’s time I traveled on alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must;
It’s only for awhile that we must part,
Then let your grief be comforted, with trust.

I won’t be far away, for life goes on;
And if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can’t see me or touch me, I’ll be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you’ll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way, alone
I’ll greet you with a smile and say,

“”Welcome Home”


Author unknown

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Hiding My Tears

Hiding My Tears

The days and weeks have been so very long since last I saw my Sailor Man.
As time stretch's on, it becomes harder and harder on my Sailor Man
Every 3 - 4 weeks Sailor is  lucky to be
 within signal range.
We then have 2 days where we can chat together.

Tonight the Captain and my Sailor shared a night on the town.
After swapping tall tales, and downing a few pints,
The calls to home started.
At times I was not to sure with whom I spoke,
Most times it was my Sailor Man, Other times The Captain,

I heard the pain and loneliness in my Sailor Man's voice.
How I longed to put my arms around him,
To hold him and ease the pain in his heart.
At times it is so hard to sound cheerful,
I dare not let him know
How it breaks my heart to hear him hurting so,
My Sailor tells me how proud he is of me,
For being so strong while he is away.
I may be able to fool my Sailor Man
But there is no fooling the Captain
For it seems he heard in my voice
what I was able to keep from my Sailor Man.
Captain assured me what he heard in my voice
would stay between us.
and he would continue to take care of my Sailor Man
It seems I have a new friend,
for which I am truly grateful

I thanked the Captain for his friendship,
And when the calls were finished,
I like the wee kitten
hid my face in my arms,
and lit the tears fall
Then headed for the sea.

I am so thankful for my beloved ocean
for once again her fierceness embraced me,
She took my tears once more
and helped ease some of the pain that's in my heart

Once more she took my weakness
Replacing it with her own strength.
Re-enforcing once again,
That anything can be over come,
if only we believe it is so.

So here I sit
With strength renewed
Ready to lift the Spirits of
My Sailor Man
when he calls  again.

Hold tight to your loved ones my dear friends,
and thank you one and all
for listening to me
yet again
Lil Sam

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Happy LOL's Day

Search lite

A little Search lite to help light the way for all Lurkers.
We all have been there,
Been afraid to post.
Thanks to Bonnie for starting this wonderful day.
It has helped so many of us.
So Welcome all my fellow Lurkers
and  a very
Happy Love Our Lurker's Day to everyone.

Lil Sam

Ups and Downs


I am stuck here in Canada,
The end of Julywe ran into an immigration officer that we were warned about.
The officer got it into her head that I was already living in the US
She raised a stink, and now I have to stay in Canada til my Green Card comes through.
Thank goodness my sailor man can still come up here.
but every time she is on duty, he is pulled over and the car is searched.
We have found out that there are 8 others that she picks on,
and no one knows why.
This we found out from our Lawyer.
My sailorman has been out to sea since Aug 1st.
Will be here with me the middle of December.

Spirits of the Sea

Hello my Dear Friends

No I have not forgotten you, How could I.
You were there when I came to you as a confused and lost soul.
I was so afraid of what the reception might be,
But I thought,
Hey, I've been shot down before,
Can not get shot down much lower than I already am,
What  a WONDERFUL surprise I got.
For you all...
You accepted me as I was,
Took me under you wing,
Reassured me,
Comforted me,
Lifted me up
Guided me
Helped me grow

You have shared my ups and down,
the good times and not so good.

I know that I have been gone for some time, and alot has happened.
My sailor man knows I blog, and has asked me not to blog when he is home,
He does not really like the idea of me sharing our life with others.
So I keep a journal of what I do during the day while he is gone,
It seems to satisfy him, for he no longer asks if I blog, so I do not offer
So I lurk in the shadows of your blogs,
And spend as much time with my beloved sea as possible.
There have been some nasty fits thrown down at the sea  of late.
Hence the sea picture.

Yes the girl is me throwing a hissy fit.
and my stern sailorman throwing  the lightening at me
He knows I love the lightening, but
I really do not want the effects of that lightening when he gets home,
but I know I will get it,
and I really do deserve it.

My Sailorman was ill for awhile and was getting worse
His captain put him ashore the end of June and made him see a Dr.
I left work and went home to him and we saw the Dr. together to get the results.
First thing she said was,"you are lucky you are alive!"
Turns out that my love is a diabetic,
his sugar had been up  around 1250 for a very long time.
that is why he kept falling asleep,
and could not remember doing some things.
we now have him back on his feet and back to work,
and being himself  once more
Which is not good for me,
As you all know, I am a slow learner

I try not to be cranky when he phones,
which is not often due to no signal,
I know it is not easy for him either,to be away
And yes there have been a few times,
Okay alot of times....
when I have not heard the warning tone or his warning
that is until it is to late..
then his"Baby Girl, You are in big trouble" 
finally gets through.
So then it is back down to the beach,
It always amazes me, how an angry sea can take away all of
my anger,most of my frustration,
Lift my spirits again and help me carry on.
What has also helped me alot,
is being able to read your blogs late at night when sleep eludes me.
Please forgive me for not blogging before now, but had I blogged they would have been
very angry ones.
Thank you for being there,
for just being my friend.

Megga hugs to you and yours

Lil Sam