My first year of Blogging
I have been through so many changes this past year,
Grown so much, met so many wonderful people.
Last night and tonight I have been enjoying a trip through many spanking blogs,
And I got to thinking about a night 1yr and 7wks ago, when I found the Taken in Hand site.
I got reading that site, forgot about time and forgot that I had to go to work in the morning, LOL
OOPS, it was 4:30 am and I had to be up at 6 for work.
But I could not get enough of that blog and the many sites that I visited from there
I remember thinking that night/early morning, that there must be something wrong with me.
Here I was, suppose to be a mature adult. So what was I doing searching for spanking sites.
Why would any so called mature woman want to be spanked or feel she needed to be spanked?
Well that site made me feel alittle better,.
From there I visited many blogs, with the first one being Bonnies MY Bottom Smarts.
What a fantastic site that was, and how it got my mind and imagination working,
I was so excited to learn that there were others that enjoyed or wanted to be spanked.
To know that I was not as weird as I thought I was.
From there I visited Spanking Pixie and Journey to the Darkside, .
I just could not seem to read enough.
What wonderful and fantastic people I met on these sites.
So open and honest about their needs, wants,and their life style.
Finally on December 19th 2008, I created my blog and posted for the very first time.As I reread the first post of my blog.
I remember how much I shook as I typed it.
Thank goodness for spell check.
I made so many spelling mistakes.
I was excited, yet scared.
Hoped I would be accepted yet so very sure that I would end up being flamed.
I might have been 57 yrs old, but I felt like a very naughty child.
It took me three days to get up the nerve to check my blog.
I was so surprised at the warm welcome, the comments and encouragement I received from so many people, that the tears fell like rain.
I am still amazed that I started a blog, let alone shared so much of myself with people I did not yet know.
I have not posted all that often, but when I have, I have always been accepted for myself.
When I have felt confused or alone my friends have always been there for me with encouragement.
Some of you even email me privately and shared words of wisdom with me. You have all helped me grow.
I think however, that I did my most growing in February of 2009.
I have reread my posts, and all the wonderful and helpful comments that were so lovingly given.
With all of your help, my beloved ocean, and the fighting between the lil devil and lil angel sitting on my shoulder, I have been able to stay true to myself.
Thanks to the gentle guidance and encouragement that I received from my friends, I have made the best choices for me. My life is full, with my family,and friends, my new husband and his family, who have excepted me as their friend.
It sure has been a great year.