Who lil Sam is: and some of what she likes
I am a single female, 57 yrs old, who needs a spanking.
I am a Nurse Aid and spend alot of time away from home as I care for people in thier own homes. Doing shifts usually of 4 days and nights in and 4 out. However, I sometime do longer shifts.
I like to walk on the beach in all types of weather, love stormy seas, walks through the forest.
I Love trucks of all sorts, especially old trucks 1940's and up or older, I like big trucks, 18 wheelers.
Really Love motorcycles, have just gotten my motorcycle learners license.
Looking to buy a motorcycle in the New Year.
I prefer listening to music rather than watching TV.
My favorite music is country, however I do enjoy a wide verity of music, depending on my mood and the setting.
I have only been in vanilla relationships, (3 to be exact).
First one was 21 yrs with a very abusive husband.
2nd relationship was an affair I had with M (that lasted 4 yrs) near then end of my marriage and for a few years after my husband and I split up.
M had been a good friend for many years, one that I always had to work at keeping at arms length, I was never to sure just what he would do if I truly relaxed around him when we were alone.
Well I found out shortly after my husband and I split.
M came to visit and I decided to relax and see where things went.
Well,before I knew what was happening M had me on the table minus my panties and giving me the only oral sex I had ever had.
M took me to a heights that I never knew existed.
M really enjoyed giving oral sex and never seemed to get enough.
He did not really enjoy receiving oral sex.
M was not into spankings either, he thought the idea was weird and sick,subject was never brought up again.
Our affair ended when DL and his wife split up,(1995) which was 6 yrs after my separation.
There was no way that I would ever cheat on DL>
DL, had been my best friend for 22 yrs and was soon to become my partner and soul mate.
We were best friends,soulmates and partners for the next 12 yrs.
I soon realize that spankings of any sort were out of the question with DL as well.
DL said that he had never hit a woman and was not about to start now. Besides the idea of it was just too weird for him. All things aside DL was still a great lover, just the same.
My sweet one passed away in 2006 and for the next year and a half I did nothing but work.
Then one day I over heard a young girl telling her friend about the spanking she had received from her boyfriend the night before. And how much fun it was.
Well that conversation awoke longings that I thought I had buried long ago. Guess not buried deep enough.
When I finally got home again a week later,it was onto the Internet for me.
BOY, did I ever get my eyes opened. I found sites that I never knew existed.
I read about people enjoying things that I thought were just in my sick, warped little mind.
I visited such interesting sites as "Taken in Hand", " Bonnie's site> My Bottom Smarts", " The Journey to the Dark Side" to name but a few.
I wish that I could IM with one or two of the ladies from some of these sites. I have so many questions.
How wonderful it is to realize that I am not as weird as I thought I was, that there are ladies out there that truly want to be spanked and truly enjoy spankings, and many other thing as well.
For the past 5 - 6 months thoughts of being spanked never seem to be far from my mind.
The very thought of being taken over the knee, having my skirt raised and panties lowered, and knowing that a spanking is *coming next, and that there is nothing I can do about it really turns me on.
After visiting some of the afore mentioned sites I have realized that my fantasies are not so weird or sick after all.
I would also like to be taken in hand by another woman.
I have fantasized for years about what it would be like to be completely controlled by another woman, to be forced over her knee or what ever, my skirt raised, panties lowered and to be soundly spanked by her. To have her remove my clothing, to feel her hands and mouth posse my body. To have to show her my gratitude, under the treat of another spanking if I don't.
Well time for bed, alone again.