Blogging Family

Our Blogging Family

During the last few days I have been asked what the Spanking Community was like.
Were they really supportive, or was that just talk.

I tried to explain how we support each other.
Never crittical, but always encouraging.
Never judgemental, always supportive
Said the first blog I saw was Bonnie's,  then Hermione's
And from there the friendships just kept growing.

I found a poem, in which I have change a few words.
But for me, it sums up how I see my Blogging Family


Through days of tears and laughter
We found a time to share.....
The days, the months, the years,have formed a kinship
that's beautiful and rare,

Our hearts were made to coincide -
God planned our roles on Earth.....
He created us as  family -
By Love and Friendship - not through our birth.

original poem by author unknown

A Very Slow Learnef

The Calm Sea after the Storm

Slow learner

Well I am now in trouble BIG TIME
Seems sailor was IM'ing with my granddaughter,
And she spilled the beans



When ever sailor and I talked, I have always been able to
as he puts it wiggle away from something I do not want to talk about.
And that is exactly what I have been doing for some time, when it came to questions about my health.
I always had a sneeky feeling that he did not believe me.



Well in this mornings email there was a big one liner
"BABY GIRL, YOU REALLY IN BIG TROUBLE THIS TIME!"
then my granddaughter emailed and said "Sorry ", I thought he Knew.



I seem to be such a slow learner,
And just do not listen to the voices of the spirits.


With work the way it was going,
and other life problems,

Instead of going down to the ocean,
I tried to handle everything alone,
and ended up getting very badly run down

Even when I was home in February,
I was able to wiggle out of questions,
Only because we had so much
going on.



By the time I did get to the beach,
The tide seemed to be so far out,
And I felt as though I was stranded on a sandbar,
With an angry sea between me and the shore
I had no choice but to stop and listen ,
I sat down on the wet sand and cried,
and begged for the healing help of the sea

And ...........

My beloved ocean recued me once again
And as the waves abosorbed my tears,
and gently teased my toes

She entered my heart and soul, and made me hear ,
that which I needed to hear.

She removed the chains of doubt from my mind and heart.
Showed me the special man that I am married to.
She restored my balance and my strength,
Then showed me the path back to shore,

Seems one must become lost,
in order to find their way.

So now with feet back firmly on the ground,
I phoned my sailor,

I explained to him what has been going on,
And that having never had someone that ever stood beside me,
I just naturally tried to handle things alone.
And in doing so, for a time I forgot him, and the sea.


We talked along time,
We cried together,
And we laughed.


Then he said we would discuss this further, when I do get home.
I asked him if this was another entry in his darn book
He said yes, but the sentence would be reduced,
But I would not be let off the hook
Sailor said that I have to learn that there are two of us now
to handle all problems.

Perhaps once I am home to stay,
having someone to share things with will become natural to me.

I sure hope so.

I am so very lucky to have such a loving and caring husband
One who is so patient with me
And who I know deep in my heart ,
will always be there for me and for us.
I just have to remember that.

My friend Dr Ken once said to me:

Sure, the tide ebbs...
but it always flows back in,
and when it does,
it can be overwhelming and fulfilling
and he hoped I always found high tide...

Well I do have alot of high tides, but also many low ones
but since I met all of you wonderful friends
The low ones are easier to deal with, cause there is always someone to talk to.

Hugs to all
Lil Sam

The Luck of the Irish....NOT!

The Luck of the Irish

    Not

Well I have gone and done it now. I am in trouble big time.
Wednesday,Saint Paddy's Day was not a good one for me.
And the so called Luck of the Irish just got up and Left me to my own devices.
Not good idea.
Sailor and I are on web-cam every morning and evening.


So St Paddies Day started out with minor misunderstanding with sailor, and him telling me that I was lucky that I am getting over the flue, otherwise he would be making note of my bad attitude.


Well now it does appear that I just might not be the Brightest Shamrock in the Garden.
Because just before I signed off to leave for work,
My brain disengaged and my mouth engaged.

Not good. For I told sailor he could stuff his book.


I guess I was not really paying attention, for I did not see the look he gave me, and he said to me,
 "Baby Girl, You is in trouble, big time,"


Now the average wife would apologies and keep the mouth shut..Right...Not
I have to have last word so I say," Yeah right!" and sign off.


Well my day went from bad to worse, trouble with clients, car acted up.
Went to class at 6:30 and had 2 bad coughing spells during class.
Was late home from class, short chat with hubby and off to bed.

Did not sleep very well. Woke up Thursday morning in a very bad mood.
Which is very very unusual for me.


Anyway, sailor was already on web-cam when I came on-line.
Asked him what the hell he was doing up so early.
He said I see my baby girl is not in any better mood this morning.
And once more warned me to watch my attitude.
I said Or what.


That is when I realized  that I had slept in, he was not early I was late, Said oh Sh-- , have to go, and ran,


Well when I got home tonight, there was message.

" BABY GIRL, YOU IS IN TROUBLE BIG TIME, DADDY VERY ANNOYED WITH YOU"


So now I Wait for sailor to get home and back on-line.
I know my beloved Sailor man will not discuss the past few days, but I also know he will not forget.
And when I get home again, I am in soooooooooooo much trouble.
I would send him a sweet letter of apologia, but I know that would not help.

Anyone out there know how I can save some of the hide on my bottom end?

No,eh. Oh well  guess in time I will have to face the music
Please keep me in your thoughts.
               LOL,


Tis a tad late  for Saint Paddies Day
But may this Blessing be with all
every day


An Old Irish Blessing



May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.


May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.


May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.


May all life's passing seasons
bring the best to you and yours


Hugs


Lil Sam

A New and Exciting Year

WOW 2010

I have gone over anonther post, seems I have used this pixie before.

I Like Angels and Pixies, Pixies have a very special meaning for me.

Here I am in March already , sure do not know were the time has gone.

So much has happened so far this year,

First of all, I hope that this post finds all my friends, and those that I have yet to meet,are well and happy.

I visited A Marines Wife's blog today. She has an awesome blog.

Welcome my friend

Will be checking in with all my friends and their blogs soon. Have missed you all.

Please forgive me for neglecting you.

Well my husband got to Canada the middle of January for 3 days, not long but better than none.

Then I was able to go home  to him in February for 5 glorious days.

We spent our first Valentines day together.

In my last post, I spoke of my friend and her question about the ocean.

Well, I am working hard to be a better friend, and to listen more closely.

My friend and I have been making more time to be together this year.

As a result we have enjoying many walks together,as well as many long talks.

I have found new ways of drawing her out, and getting her to talk more.

I explained to her, my intrest in Wicca and what it stands for,

What it means to me.

Introduced her to the strength of my beloved Ocean,

and to the Peace and tranquility of the forest.

My friend said the other day that she now understand

How the ocean gives me strength and renews my spirit.

She  now also enjoys fully the peace and tranquility that we share

as we walk through the forest.

My friend and I have always shared a special bond,

But we now seem to have a new bond , one that is stronger,like that of sisters. 

She now feels freer to lean on me during her troubled time

especially right now, with her  husband ailing.

As for me, I  am in the process of helping my roommate find an apt. that she can afford on her own.

Once she is settled then I can take care of me.

I am hoping to be able to move home to my sailor man permanently by the end of summer.

But time will tell.

Until then,

I shall continue to enjoy the adventures of life,

and all that it has to offer.

Both the ups and downs.

I will continue to protect all that I hold dear,

Family,Friends, and all of nature,

And when all is said and done

I know the arms of my sailor man await me.

And in them a safe and happy harbour awaits.

To all 

Blessed Be

Last Post of 2009

A friend asked me :
"Where the heck have you been these past many months"
She told me that it been said that I had been seen down at the beach alot.
She asked me how could I find such a horrible place so interesting.

Well the first thing that ran through me was annoyance.
But just very briefly, for annoyance with my friend or anyone is not allowed.
Next was empathy for my friend.
For she is not a very happy soul,
and does not see to very much of the beauty around her.

We made a date to walk and visit the first weekend in the New Year.
She headed home, and yes you guessed it,
I headed to the beach.


I arrived just as the sun was starting to go to rest for the day.
Colouring the sky in beautiful rainbow colours.
The soft rich colours reflecting on the ocean waves,
gave my heart such a lift.


There I sat, in a quiet little cove, on an isolated beach,
beckoned there by the call of the sea,
I realize that I am powerless,
I can not fight the call of the sea,
I must obey
I must be there to feel, to hear, and to absorb all
that Nature and God has to give me and to teach me.


So here I sit
listening to the sound of the waves,
the cries of the gulls,
My body absorbing the gentle soft salty spray from the ocean waves,
Enjoying the heavenly scent of the intoxicating salt air.
My eyes painting the scene before me on the canvas of my mind and my heart.
So that whenever I close my eyes, the beauty of life is always there for me to see and enjoy.


Once again I feel the strength and power of my beloved ocean,
as she lovingly surrounds me with her strength and gently teases my toes.

 once more I am lifted up from the earthly plain.
I feel such joy and complete peace fill my heart and soul.

All cares are taken from me,
And the year plays out before me,

I see of my sad friend, and now knew how to help her.
I see all  of the wonderful people who entered my life this past year.
I think of all my internet friends, and wish them well
I thought of all the loved ones that passed from this world to the next.
Happy that they have been apart of my life
I see the smiling face of my beloved New Husband,
And I thought of the joy and contentment that we have brought to each others lives.
And asked for many years to share this joy together.

I thought of a year filled with lots of ups and downs
A year filled with challenges aplenty.
A year filled with laughter and tears, both happy and sad.


I give thanks for this year that is about to end,
and thanks for the New Year that is about to start.

As I once more became aware of being back on the beach,
With cold wet toes
And a bright moonlit path back to my car,
I remembered a verse that was given to me many many years ago.
And until this nigh, did not mean much to me,
For I did not really understand it.
But this night it became clear.

I will share it with you,
Say good night,
      And
Blessed Be
      and
Meet you all in the
New Year


Yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But..today, well lived
Makes every yesterday
A dream of Happiness.
And every tomorrow
A Vision of Hope
So look well, therefore,
to this day

Hugs to all
Lil Sam

Thank you to Special Friends and Merry Christmas

Special Friends

Friendship is important
to all Creatures
This post may be somewhat similar to my last post,
 but I can not tell you how very much I appriciate all of you,
and how thankful I am for your friendship.

My place of peace and strength

I am not sure if it is the season, or the fact that I miss my husband so very much, that has me feeling so sentimental.

But for what ever the reason, tonight I sit here listening to a relaxation CD of Ocean waves and rereading some of my first few posts
So many changes have take place in my life since those first posts.
When I first found the Taken in Hand website, that lead me to all of you, I was so unsure, and afraid of what the reaction would be.
Never in my life have I ever trusted anyone as I did all of you.
 Nor allowed anyone to know so much about me.
I am so grateful that I did. I made many new and wonderful friends during those first post.
I grew. I gained the courage to search for the true me, and gained the confidence to embrace the changes in my live, and to accept the guidance of my friends.
I said good bye to some people from the past with no regret.
Met someone very special who became my friend, and then my husband, my best friend and soul mate.
With the welcome and acceptance that I received from you, a fair sized crack appeared in my protective shell.
It did not take my new husband long to completely destroy my protective shellcompletly, and to teach me that I was not alone, and never would be again, and that I was truly safe with him, and always would be.
My Sailor and I are two of a kind. both very stubborn, and strong willed.
He is the only one that knows how to handle me. He knows my stengths and weaknesses
We may be apart now due to his work, but the bond that we share strengthens each and every day.
We both thrive on challenge, and this is just one of many that will come our way.
I look forward to sharing those challenges as they come about.
But in the meantime, I want to Thank all of you for being a very important part of my life thus far,
For sharing my growth and sharing your lives with me.
Merry Christmas to you and yours and the Very Best to all in 2010

My first year of Blogging

My first year of Blogging

I have been through so many changes this past year,
 Grown so much, met so many wonderful people.



Last night and tonight I have been enjoying a trip through many spanking blogs,


And I got to thinking about a night 1yr and 7wks ago, when I found the Taken in Hand site.


I got reading that site, forgot about time and forgot that I had to go to work in the morning, LOL
OOPS, it was 4:30 am and I had to be up at 6 for work.
But I could not get enough of that blog and the many sites that I visited from there
I remember thinking that night/early morning, that there must be something wrong with me.
Here I was, suppose to be a mature adult. So what was I doing searching for spanking sites.
Why would any so called mature woman want to be spanked or feel she needed to be spanked?

Well that site made me feel alittle better,.


From there I visited many blogs, with the first one being Bonnies MY Bottom Smarts.
What a fantastic site that was, and how it got my mind and imagination working,
I was so excited to learn that there were others that enjoyed or wanted to be spanked.
To know that I was not as weird as I thought I was.

From there I visited Spanking Pixie and Journey to the Darkside, .
I just could not seem to read enough.
What wonderful and fantastic people I met on these sites.
So open and honest about their needs, wants,and their life style.

Finally on December 19th 2008, I created my blog and posted for the very first time.As I reread the first post of my blog. 
I remember how much I shook as I typed it.

Thank goodness for spell check.
I made so many spelling mistakes.


I was excited, yet scared.
Hoped I would be accepted yet so very sure  that I would end up being flamed.

I might have been 57 yrs old, but I felt like a very naughty child.
It took me three days to get up the nerve to check my blog.


I was so surprised at the warm welcome, the comments and encouragement I received from so many people, that the tears fell like rain.
I am still amazed that I started a blog, let alone shared so much of myself with people I did not yet know.
I have not posted all that often, but when I have, I have always been accepted for myself.
When I have felt confused or alone my friends have always been there for me with encouragement.
Some of you even email me privately and shared words of wisdom with me. You have all helped me grow.
I think however, that I did my most growing in February of 2009.
I have reread my posts, and all the wonderful and helpful comments that were so lovingly given.


With all of your help, my beloved ocean, and the fighting between the lil devil and lil angel sitting on my shoulder, I have been able to stay true to myself.


Thanks to the gentle guidance and encouragement that I received from my friends, I have made the best choices for me. My life is full, with my family,and friends, my new husband and his family, who have excepted me as their friend.
It sure has been a great year.