My first year of Blogging

My first year of Blogging

I have been through so many changes this past year,
 Grown so much, met so many wonderful people.



Last night and tonight I have been enjoying a trip through many spanking blogs,


And I got to thinking about a night 1yr and 7wks ago, when I found the Taken in Hand site.


I got reading that site, forgot about time and forgot that I had to go to work in the morning, LOL
OOPS, it was 4:30 am and I had to be up at 6 for work.
But I could not get enough of that blog and the many sites that I visited from there
I remember thinking that night/early morning, that there must be something wrong with me.
Here I was, suppose to be a mature adult. So what was I doing searching for spanking sites.
Why would any so called mature woman want to be spanked or feel she needed to be spanked?

Well that site made me feel alittle better,.


From there I visited many blogs, with the first one being Bonnies MY Bottom Smarts.
What a fantastic site that was, and how it got my mind and imagination working,
I was so excited to learn that there were others that enjoyed or wanted to be spanked.
To know that I was not as weird as I thought I was.

From there I visited Spanking Pixie and Journey to the Darkside, .
I just could not seem to read enough.
What wonderful and fantastic people I met on these sites.
So open and honest about their needs, wants,and their life style.

Finally on December 19th 2008, I created my blog and posted for the very first time.As I reread the first post of my blog. 
I remember how much I shook as I typed it.

Thank goodness for spell check.
I made so many spelling mistakes.


I was excited, yet scared.
Hoped I would be accepted yet so very sure  that I would end up being flamed.

I might have been 57 yrs old, but I felt like a very naughty child.
It took me three days to get up the nerve to check my blog.


I was so surprised at the warm welcome, the comments and encouragement I received from so many people, that the tears fell like rain.
I am still amazed that I started a blog, let alone shared so much of myself with people I did not yet know.
I have not posted all that often, but when I have, I have always been accepted for myself.
When I have felt confused or alone my friends have always been there for me with encouragement.
Some of you even email me privately and shared words of wisdom with me. You have all helped me grow.
I think however, that I did my most growing in February of 2009.
I have reread my posts, and all the wonderful and helpful comments that were so lovingly given.


With all of your help, my beloved ocean, and the fighting between the lil devil and lil angel sitting on my shoulder, I have been able to stay true to myself.


Thanks to the gentle guidance and encouragement that I received from my friends, I have made the best choices for me. My life is full, with my family,and friends, my new husband and his family, who have excepted me as their friend.
It sure has been a great year.

Just Venting

Heavy Seas

My thoughts and emotions are as turbulent as the stormy sea in the above picture.
I am so worried about my guy.

Hubby and I spent a wonderful time together on Wednesday of last week,.
While we were enjoying our time together, I realized that he was in pain.
He said that he has been in pain for the past month but that the last 2 weeks have been really bad.
The way he discribed the pain, it sounds like kidney stones.
I wanted  to go back to the states with him. and see the Dr, but oh no, not my sailor man.
So Thursday morning saw a worried me on my way back to my Canandian home and hubby back to the tugboat.


He called later that  thursday night and said they were on thier way to Alaska,would be gone 14 days.
Never heard from hubby again until tonight Tuesday the 15th.
Due to very bad weather he was not abe to get through on the phone.
Said they were in a cove and had to dtop anchor due to snow, and heavy winds and seas
He did not sound good, and when questioned, he said he has not been doing well, and was in alot of pain.
I am very thankful to the tugboat captian, who is keeping an eye on my sailor.
He has promised to go to the Dr. when he gets in hopefully on the 22nd
So I will be taking time off work to join hubby in the states and make sure that he is looked after.

I am still so amazed at what he and I share, and at how deep our love is.
What I felt for my first 2 husbands was nothing compared to  what I feel for my sailor man.
Well , thank you for listening, and just being afriend
Hugs
Lil Sam

An Unexpected treat

I Got a call from my beloved husband late tues night. He was going to be in port wednesday morning until thursday morning. Could I steal away from work for that time period.


Due to my work and the wonderful people I work for and with, I was given the time off.
So off I went early Wednesday morning to meet the ferry, with the blessings of my clients.

Oh how I wanted to jump the fence as I saw him come down the ramp way.
Just to feel those arms of his around me once more.
Well he was finally through customs, and we are finally together,
And once again I am surprised at how much love,joy and happiness a heart can hold without bursting.


After all the hugs and smooches, it was off to find a place for lunch.
During lunch, my loving husband reminded me that I was in trouble.
I could not think why or what he meant, that is until I saw the look in his eyes,
My heart did a double flip, for there was no mistaking that look.
It was a look I had come to know on our honeymoon.
But I still did not know what I was in trouble for.


Well my appetite just went out the window, my mind just kept running ahead of me to our room,


Soon we were at our room, and hubby reminded me that for the past 6 days, I had been very grumpy when he phoned. He reminded me that he had warned me to watch my attitude or I would be in trouble. Guess I was not listening. (nothing new for me, it seems)

That hubby of mine is so fast,and it was not very long before I saw the errors of my ways, for I very soon found myself over his knee.(much to my delight)
He has a way of teasing that soon has me begging to be spanked,.
And he is so good at it, and it was not long before I was promising to be good and watch my attitued.


I remember thinking at one time," I wonder if I am getting into something I am going to regret?"
Now, I am a happy and contented, pampered and well spanked wife, and I love every minute of it.

If this is the joy that we share when we are together for short periods of time, I can only imagine what how great it will be when he retires and we can be together all the time.

A Very Happy and Contented Lil Sam

My Oh My, Oh My,

So much has happened since I last posted, I almost don't know where to start.



But before I go any farther I must apologies for neglecting all of my friends who have guided me so tenderly , since I joined you family.


You took a confused lady under you wing and helped me find my way, you never ever judged me, always made me feel very comfortable and welcome.


From the bottom of my heart I thank each and every one of you.


I really must thank Hermione and Bonnie for their comments on my last post.


No Hemione at the time of my last posting my Sailorman Mr B and I had not yet been intimate. Each time I brought up the Spanking subject,in our conversation, my Sailorman(Mr B.) would change the subject.


Mr B and I spent 15 glorious days together the end of June and beginning of July.


3x during our time together, my Sailorman got alittle carried away while we were making love and gave me several firm spanks,much to my delight. It was not til the 3rd time it happened that he actually believed me and realized I did indeed enjoy the spanks. He just was not listening to what I was saying to him.


Our time together ended way to soon, I can home to Canada and back to work, and he back to the ships in Alaska.

Well things went from good to FANTASTIC. In August Mr B and I were married at sunrise on the beach, here in Canada, and headed home to the US to pick up the RV and go camping for 2 wks. As we on our way home, Mr B said he had a surprise for me once we got to our campsite.


Well I know what I was hoping for, but I could not read his expression this time,which is unusual.

 Well, me being me, I had to start teasing him, Sailorman said quite or I would be sorry, and Lil Sam being a very stubborn Lil Sam, did not listen nor see the look, LOL

 The long and short of it, once we got camp set up, Much to my pure delight,
I very quickly found myself over his knee, receiving a bare bottom spanking.
Our lovemaking afterwards was out of this world,

Well that was the first,and by no means the last. My sailor man sure does know how to take care of his Lil SAM, in all ways.

And now when I tell him how much I enjoy his spankings and the way he makes me feel, he actually hears me,

So needles to say, I am one happy newly wed. We still talk about everything.


Although there are times that I will send him an email that starts " Yes lover, It is one of those emails." then he knows that he has to think about what is there and either talk to me or email me. sometimes this is the easiest way for us to get a message across.




My Sailorman has been out on the tugs since end of Oct, hopefully home in time for Xmas, time will tell. It is hard not seeing him every day on the instant messenger, but at least we talk for a few mins on the phone daily.


Well best I go, but I just had to share this part of my new life with all of you, as you have already shared so much of my life with me thus far.


Thank you for being there for me, being my friend, for not judging me, but always guiding me.




Your friend always


Lil Sam

Help Please

HELP, ME PLEASE

I need the help and guidance from my wise friends, I am desperate.LOL
My sailor man (Mr. B) is almost too good to be true.
If my messaging does not sound right to him he is on the phone.
He always seems to know when something is bothering me.
I can not believe how much we have in common, right down to our warped sense of humour.
He is the only one that has ever been able to make me blush, and take great pleasure in doing so.

He always seems to know when I am,
He’s such an adorable cheeky brat.
We chat every night for at least 2 hr mostly via Instant messenger.
He phones every other night, we chat every morning while I have my coffee before leaving for work.
Last week I had 3 morning that I had to be up at 5:30, (which is 4:30 his time)
The first morning, I was floored to see him online and buzzing me at 5 am his time, just so that we could chat and he could send me off to work with a hug and a kiss and a wish for a good day,
My sailor man was up with me every morning, and every night at 9:30 his time he was saying" it is bedtime my little cup cake, I’ll see you in the morning." And with a hug and kiss he would be gone.
I look forward to our evening chats and sharing my day with him, and sharing his day.
He tells me things about the boat that he is on, in a way that I can almost visualize them. He sends picture of the boat.
And most of the time what I have visualized is correct.
We are going away together for 4 days the end of June, to a seaside resort.
I can hardly wait to feel those muscular arms of his around me in hug that definitely will not be a friendship hug.
The problem is His Hands.
I can not keep my eyes of them or my mind and thoughts.
He has awesome hands; I love the feel of them as he rubs my back.
I keep visualizing them on my bottom and how well they would cover it.
My sailor man is not into spankings.
He once said jokingly that I needed to be put over his knee, and spanked.
My reply was,"Yup, sure do, bring it on baby."
He told he was kidding, and that no woman should be hit in any way.
I tried to tell him that spanking was not exactly hitting, (believe me I know the difference)
But my sailor man He just shut door on the topic.
How do I bring the spanking subject just one more time?
How do I explain to him what it is I need from him.
Outside of this subject, there is nothing absolutely anything that we can not and have not talked about.
I look forward to you guidance, my dear friends
Thank you for being there for me.

I need help and guidance from my wise friends, I am desperate.LOL
My sailor man (Mr. B) is almost too good to be true.
If my messaging does not sound right to him he is on the phone.
He always seems to know when something is bothering me.
I can not believe how much we have in common, right down to our warped sense of humour.
He is the only one that has been able to make me blush, And take great pleasure in doing so. He also always seems know when I am,
He’s such an adorable cheeky brat.
We chat every night for at least 2 hr mostly via Instant messenger.
He phones every other night, we chat every morning while I have my coffee before leaving for work.
Last week I had 3 morning that I had to be up at 5:30,

(which is 4:30 his time)
The first morning, I was floored to see him online and buzzing me at 5 am his time, just so that we could chat and he could send me off to work with a hug and a kiss and a wish for a good day,
My sailor man was up with me every morning, and every night at 9:30 his time he was saying" it is bedtime my little cup cake, I’ll see you in the morning." And with a hug and kiss he would be gone.
I look forward to our evening chats and sharing my day with him, and sharing his day.
He tells me things about the boat that he is on, in a way that I can almost visualize them. He'll send picture of the boat.
And most of the time what I have visualized is correct.

We are going away together for 4 days the end of June, to a seaside resort.
I can hardly wait to feel those muscular arms of his around me in hug that definitely will not be a friendship hug.

The problem is His Hands.
I can not keep my eyes off them or my mind and thoughts.
He has awesome hands;

I keep seeing them warming my bottom.

I am sure they would cover my bottom very nicely.

I love the feel of them as he rubs my back.

I can only imagine how great they would feel on my bottom.
My sailor man is not into spankings.
He once said jokingly that I needed to be put over his knee, and spanked.
My reply was,"Yup, sure do, bring it on baby."
He told he was kidding, and that no woman should be hit in any way.
I tried to tell him that spanking was not exactly hitting, (believe me I know the difference)
But my sailor man He just shut door on the topic.
How do I bring the spanking subject just one more time?
How do I explain to him what it is I need from him.
Outside of this subject, there is nothing absolutely anything that we can not and have not talked about.
I look forward to you guidance, my dear friends
Thank you all for always being there for me and for you guidance

Dreaming Of

Reaching Out

REACHING OUT

TO LIFE AND FRIENDS

Due to family illness I spent much of March away from home at my sisters.
With my sisters husband’s passing on March 19th , it meant abit more time away, with no free access to a computer. As my darling sister is very nosey and very straight laced.
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I have to say that I have really missed all of you. I’ve missed being able
to read all your stories, I've missed the friendship that I feel each time I
visiting one of your sites .

It seems that for now at least, my blog is destined to be about
the changes in my life.
And how very fortunate I am to have such caring friends to share it with.
To say that life has been interesting of late is an understatement.
However I am enjoying the adventure, and I am very thankful that I have all of you to share the adventure with.




With all that has been going on, I have managed to have some
time alone at the beach, a few times the weather has been stormy,
much to my delight. Not only because I love a stormy sea, but also
because it means I get to have the beach all to myself,with the exception of the sea gulls.
As of late, I have been investigating my Irish back ground,
and their involvement in Wicca.
Have gone to a few Wicca meetings and have found them very interesting.
Have met many new friends within that group people.
I have learnt that without really realising it, I have used some the teaching of Wicca in my dealing with my seniors.




Since February 26th. I have been emailing with a gentleman , "Mr B" from Washington.
He is a chief engineer on a freighter.
His emails are fantastic. When Mr B talks about the place that
he is at, one can almost see the things he is talking about.
When he tells me about the stormy weather and the extremely rough
sea, I can almost smell the salt water and feel the spray.
The pictures he sends me, match the images in my mind.
Mr B. has told me so much about his life and his family that
I almost feel as though I would know his family if I were
to suddenly meet them on the street.
Well after about 3 weeks of steady e-mails and IM’S, I finally agreed to exchange phone Numbers.
He has phoned every night since.
Well Mr B said that he was coming to visit in May, as he also has some good friends in the next town over from me.
Easter Sunday Mr B said he was coming to visit and take me out to lunch, Said he would be here on Monday.
Easter Monday I get a phone call from Mr B, he was in town and it was lunch time.
We had lunch together and then spent a great afternoon together,walking the beach, and kite flying. It is amazing how much alike we are, and how much we have in common.
We finishing the day of with a very long,relaxed and enjoyable supper,
after which Mr B drove me home.
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A hug and a kiss on the cheek, he was headed back to the States,
as he had to be aboard ship headed for Dutch harbour Alaska Wednesday
morning for the next 6 weeks.
Mr B phoned me Tuesday morning (april 14) just before I left work, just to wish me a good day and to tell me he would be back in 6 wks time.

I know that I will not hear from him until about Friday until the ship gets to where they are going.
This will be the first time since Mr B started phoning that we will not chat at night.
I did not realize until now just how much I looked forward to our nightly chats.
Is it Friday Yet?!


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Thank You
This will be a very short post this time, as I find myself at aloss for words.
What a delightful surprise it was to receive the friendship award from Hermoine.
And all I can think of to say is Thank You!
The Rules to accepting this award:
"Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text in the body of their award.

I want to nominate my friends at
Secret life of Andrades Girl
A New Beginning
Spanking Good Time
The Naughty Side of K
My Bottom Smarts
Dante’s Paradiso
About Spanking
Jflame’s Journey
Heart and Soul
Hugs to all
Lil Sam