lil sams

A Word of Comfort to One and All

2010-11-07T01:03:00.000-07:00

Of late I have read of so many of my friends here having loved ones crossing over to next world.

I know that no words can really ease the pain that is in ones heart.

I pray that this poem with bring to you a measure of the comfort it has brought to me over the years.

Til the pain starts to ease alittle

may the love and friendship of all your friends

be of great comfort to you

Hugs Lil Sam

To Those I Love and Those Who Loved Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go
So I can move into my afterglow.
I have so many things to see and do.
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears,
Let’s be happy that we had so many years.

I gave to you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown,
But now it’s time I traveled on alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must;
It’s only for awhile that we must part,
Then let your grief be comforted, with trust.

I won’t be far away, for life goes on;
And if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can’t see me or touch me, I’ll be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you’ll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way, alone
I’ll greet you with a smile and say,

“”Welcome Home”

Author unknown

Hiding My Tears

2010-11-06T23:51:00.000-07:00

Hiding My Tears

The days and weeks have been so very long since last I saw my Sailor Man.

As time stretch's on, it becomes harder and harder on my Sailor Man

Every 3 - 4 weeks Sailor is lucky to be

within signal range.

We then have 2 days where we can chat together.

Tonight the Captain and my Sailor shared a night on the town.

After swapping tall tales, and downing a few pints,

The calls to home started.

At times I was not to sure with whom I spoke,

Most times it was my Sailor Man, Other times The Captain,

I heard the pain and loneliness in my Sailor Man's voice.

How I longed to put my arms around him,

To hold him and ease the pain in his heart.

At times it is so hard to sound cheerful,

I dare not let him know

How it breaks my heart to hear him hurting so,

My Sailor tells me how proud he is of me,

For being so strong while he is away.

I may be able to fool my Sailor Man

But there is no fooling the Captain

For it seems he heard in my voice

what I was able to keep from my Sailor Man.

Captain assured me what he heard in my voice

would stay between us.

and he would continue to take care of my Sailor Man

It seems I have a new friend,

for which I am truly grateful

I thanked the Captain for his friendship,

And when the calls were finished,

I like the wee kitten

hid my face in my arms,

and lit the tears fall

Then headed for the sea.

I am so thankful for my beloved ocean

for once again her fierceness embraced me,

She took my tears once more

and helped ease some of the pain that's in my heart

Once more she took my weakness

Replacing it with her own strength.

Re-enforcing once again,

That anything can be over come,

if only we believe it is so.

So here I sit

With strength renewed

Ready to lift the Spirits of

My Sailor Man

when he calls again.

Hold tight to your loved ones my dear friends,

and thank you one and all

for listening to me

yet again

Hugs

Lil Sam

Happy LOL's Day

2010-10-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

Search lite

A little Search lite to help light the way for all Lurkers.

We all have been there,

Been afraid to post.

Thanks to Bonnie for starting this wonderful day.

It has helped so many of us.

So Welcome all my fellow Lurkers

and a very

Happy Love Our Lurker's Day to everyone.

Hugs

Lil Sam

Ups and Downs

2010-10-20T19:14:00.000-07:00

GRRRRRRRR

I am stuck here in Canada,

The end of Julywe ran into an immigration officer that we were warned about.

The officer got it into her head that I was already living in the US

She raised a stink, and now I have to stay in Canada til my Green Card comes through.

Thank goodness my sailor man can still come up here.

but every time she is on duty, he is pulled over and the car is searched.

We have found out that there are 8 others that she picks on,

and no one knows why.

This we found out from our Lawyer.

My sailorman has been out to sea since Aug 1st.

Will be here with me the middle of December.

Spirits of the Sea

Hello my Dear Friends

No I have not forgotten you, How could I.

You were there when I came to you as a confused and lost soul.

I was so afraid of what the reception might be,

But I thought,

Hey, I've been shot down before,

Can not get shot down much lower than I already am,

What a WONDERFUL surprise I got.

For you all...

You accepted me as I was,

Took me under you wing,

Reassured me,

Comforted me,

Lifted me up

and

Guided me

and

Helped me grow

You have shared my ups and down,

the good times and not so good.

I know that I have been gone for some time, and alot has happened.

My sailor man knows I blog, and has asked me not to blog when he is home,

He does not really like the idea of me sharing our life with others.

So I keep a journal of what I do during the day while he is gone,

It seems to satisfy him, for he no longer asks if I blog, so I do not offer

So I lurk in the shadows of your blogs,

And spend as much time with my beloved sea as possible.

There have been some nasty fits thrown down at the sea of late.

Hence the sea picture.

Yes the girl is me throwing a hissy fit.

and my stern sailorman throwing the lightening at me

He knows I love the lightening, but

I really do not want the effects of that lightening when he gets home,

but I know I will get it,

and I really do deserve it.

My Sailorman was ill for awhile and was getting worse

His captain put him ashore the end of June and made him see a Dr.

I left work and went home to him and we saw the Dr. together to get the results.

First thing she said was,"you are lucky you are alive!"

Turns out that my love is a diabetic,

his sugar had been up around 1250 for a very long time.

that is why he kept falling asleep,

and could not remember doing some things.

we now have him back on his feet and back to work,

and being himself once more

Which is not good for me,

As you all know, I am a slow learner

Well

I try not to be cranky when he phones,

which is not often due to no signal,

I know it is not easy for him either,to be away

And yes there have been a few times,

Okay alot of times....

when I have not heard the warning tone or his warning

that is until it is to late..

then his"Baby Girl, You are in big trouble"

finally gets through.

So then it is back down to the beach,

It always amazes me, how an angry sea can take away all of

my anger,most of my frustration,

Lift my spirits again and help me carry on.

What has also helped me alot,

is being able to read your blogs late at night when sleep eludes me.

Please forgive me for not blogging before now, but had I blogged they would have been

very angry ones.

Thank you for being there,

and

for just being my friend.

Megga hugs to you and yours

Lil Sam

CONTENTED..for now Part Two

2010-04-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

CONTENTED ... for now

PART TWO

A Well Spanked

but

Contented Wife

Well my last post was all about the Friday that I got home.

The spanking that I received was for my very bad attitude on St Paddy's day.

And of falling asleep in my husbands arms, a well spanked and contented wife.

Part Two

Now Saturday morning I awoke to my sailor nibbling on my neck,

Rubbing his coarse beard over my shoulders and neck.

He knows that drives me wild.

His work rough hands stroking my back,

down over my hips,my butt,thighs, inner thighs,

back up my thighs to my butt.

Squeezing,and teasing.

He soon has me squirming and wanting to be taken over his knee

Sailor pulls me over onto my side,

just enough for the big pillow to be put in place

He helps me roll over onto the pillow

I arch my butt towards his hand,

waiting for that first gentle smack.

"Oh No, me Baby Girl," says he to me.

You'll no be enjoying this spanking.

At least not to start.

Have you forgotten your fib to me,

by error of omission.

The truth I learned from your Granddaughter.

I told you this transgression

would be written in me book. that we would talk about it.

(Damn his steel trap memory, and book)

(I did not say that to him though)

And talk about it,we did,

or rather he talked about it,

and I listened

as he paddled my already sore backside,

Well after 20 or 30 sound smack

Sailor man put the paddle down

and was gently and soothingly rubbing my very red butt.

Very shortly I found myself pulled to the edge of the bed,

And with an urgency that matched my own

My sailor man and I lovingly gave

of ourselves to each other.

Later as I lay cradled in his arms,

We talked about our life together.

And how it is at the moment.

And how it will be in the future

when I am finally home for good.

The main thing I have to remember is that

there are Two of us in this relationship.

That we share everything,good and bad,

No matter if we are together or apart.

as long as we are always open

and honest with each other,

and discuss things,

then our love

will always see us through.

And I know that my sailor man will always

help keep me on the right path.

While I am in Canada, and He is in the US

I make sure that I visit my Beloved Ocean

least every other day.

And at least once a day

we speak on the phone.

CONTENTED.... for now

2010-04-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

CONTENTED

for now

First of all,

I want to say Hello,

to all my friends.

I have missed you all so much.

It has been very busy here of late.

Work has picked up once more,

and I have been kept very busy.

Also have found an apt,

and my roommate and I are in the process of moving.

doing most of it after I get home from work

BUT

I did finally have a chance to go home for a few days,

if nothing else.

Home to the safe harbour of my husbands arms and love.

The boat ride seemed to take forever.

But finally we were pulling into harbour.

As I stood on deck waiting for the ship to dock

my heart did a double flip

For I have spotted my sailor man

Standing alone on the shore

with only the gulls soaring above

I know he saw me, for he waved to me,

and his smile was a welcoming beacon

for a very lonely wife.

It seemed to take forever for the boat to dock,

but finally we were tied to the dock

As we disembarked and made our way to Customs,

I could have sworn that

everyone on board ship

was in front of me,

and walking as slow as possible.

How I wish I could sprout winds

Then

There he is.

Standing in the exit doorway

His smile seemed to light up the whole room

My eyes could only see the light in his

and the brightness of his smile.

My heat fills with so much joy and love,

and sure I am that is will burst.

My heart is beating like a thousand base drums.

And sure I am that everyone can hear it's beat

Then the strangest thing happened,

I felt someone nudging me.

Telling me that I was next.

But, how could this be,

for sure I am,

that everyone on board ship

is in front of me.

I realize that the Customs Agent is calling me as well.

The Custom's Agent then says to me,

"You seem a tad distracted,Ma'am"

"Would it have anything to do with the gentleman

whose pacing in yonder doorway!?"

All I could do was blush, and say "Oh Yes."

(And me who never blushes)

I try very hard to concentrate on his questions,

and do manage to answer them all,

with him only having to draw my attention back

a time or two.

Finally he says to me,( with twinkling eyes)

"Well little Lady, I believe you best be on your way,

to the gentleman who is so patiently awaiting you"

"And, Have a good evening."

Well, I believe I must have flowen from there to my sailor's arms,

for I no remember walking to him.

and nothing ever felt so go, nor as welcome

as when his arms wrapped so lovingly and protectively around me,

and his lips met mine,

and our heartbeats became as one.

The thundering sound of our heartbeats

seemed to have been joined

by the applauding of my fellow passengers.

It seems they all heard my sailor man say

"Welcome home Wife."

I am safe,

I am loved and protected.

I am home,

There were many people waiting for us when we arrived home.

Seems all my new friends and family had come to welcome me home,

if only for a short visit.

There were lots of teasing, laughter,and hugs and a fantastic pot luck supper.

As sailor man and I did clean up,

He slid behind me,

and held me so close

that I could feel his heartbeat.

Soon his hands were wondering

lovingly and passively over me,

teasing my bottom with gentle and suggestive squeezes and rubs,

and gentle swats from time to time.

Was not long before my jeans were sliding down over my hip,

and from there it was a very short trip to being over his knee.

the spanking was pleasurable,

HOWEVER

that was soon to change.

Sailor reminded my of my very bad attitude on St Paddy's Day,

And that he had warned me several time to watch my attitude,

But, I had paid him no never mind.

I told my sailor man I was very sorry, and tried to explain.

he said my apology was accepted,

but that it would not get me out of

the spanking I had earned.

The spanking then changed,

His gentle hand became hard as steel.

As sailor continued to lecture me about my attitude

he switched to a paddle,

I kept telling him I was sorry,

and he kept saying I was indeed going to be very sore( sorry).

Then suddenly his hand was once again

very gentle and loving.

I slid from his knees to pleasure my husband

to show him how much I love and respect him

and how grateful I am

that he cares and loves me so much

that he will take me in hand when need be,

and not allow me to get into these snits

and get away with them.

Our love making is always great,

But this night it was out of this world

The last thing I remember as I drifted of to sleep,

Was my sailor man pulling me just a tad closer to him,

(if that was possible)

I feel so warm and safe in his arms,

I am surrounded by his love and protection.

I am home.

Blogging Family

2010-03-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

Our Blogging Family

During the last few days I have been asked what the Spanking Community was like.
Were they really supportive, or was that just talk.

I tried to explain how we support each other.
Never crittical, but always encouraging.
Never judgemental, always supportive
Said the first blog I saw was Bonnie's, then Hermione's
And from there the friendships just kept growing.

I found a poem, in which I have change a few words.
But for me, it sums up how I see my Blogging Family

Through days of tears and laughter
We found a time to share.....
The days, the months, the years,have formed a kinship
that's beautiful and rare,

Our hearts were made to coincide -
God planned our roles on Earth.....
He created us as family -
By Love and Friendship - not through our birth.

original poem by author unknown

A Very Slow Learnef

2010-03-20T18:23:00.000-07:00

The Calm Sea after the Storm

Slow learner

Well I am now in trouble BIG TIME
Seems sailor was IM'ing with my granddaughter,
And she spilled the beans

When ever sailor and I talked, I have always been able to
as he puts it wiggle away from something I do not want to talk about.
And that is exactly what I have been doing for some time, when it came to questions about my health.
I always had a sneeky feeling that he did not believe me.

Well in this mornings email there was a big one liner
"BABY GIRL, YOU REALLY IN BIG TROUBLE THIS TIME!"
then my granddaughter emailed and said "Sorry ", I thought he Knew.

I seem to be such a slow learner,
And just do not listen to the voices of the spirits.

With work the way it was going,
and other life problems,

Instead of going down to the ocean,
I tried to handle everything alone,
and ended up getting very badly run down

Even when I was home in February,
I was able to wiggle out of questions,
Only because we had so much
going on.

By the time I did get to the beach,
The tide seemed to be so far out,
And I felt as though I was stranded on a sandbar,
With an angry sea between me and the shore
I had no choice but to stop and listen ,
I sat down on the wet sand and cried,
and begged for the healing help of the sea

And ...........

My beloved ocean recued me once again
And as the waves abosorbed my tears,
and gently teased my toes

She entered my heart and soul, and made me hear ,
that which I needed to hear.

She removed the chains of doubt from my mind and heart.
Showed me the special man that I am married to.
She restored my balance and my strength,
Then showed me the path back to shore,

Seems one must become lost,
in order to find their way.

So now with feet back firmly on the ground,
I phoned my sailor,

I explained to him what has been going on,
And that having never had someone that ever stood beside me,
I just naturally tried to handle things alone.
And in doing so, for a time I forgot him, and the sea.

We talked along time,
We cried together,
And we laughed.

Then he said we would discuss this further, when I do get home.
I asked him if this was another entry in his darn book
He said yes, but the sentence would be reduced,
But I would not be let off the hook
Sailor said that I have to learn that there are two of us now
to handle all problems.

Perhaps once I am home to stay,
having someone to share things with will become natural to me.

I sure hope so.

I am so very lucky to have such a loving and caring husband
One who is so patient with me
And who I know deep in my heart ,
will always be there for me and for us.
I just have to remember that.

My friend Dr Ken once said to me:

Sure, the tide ebbs...
but it always flows back in,
and when it does,
it can be overwhelming and fulfilling
and he hoped I always found high tide...

Well I do have alot of high tides, but also many low ones
but since I met all of you wonderful friends
The low ones are easier to deal with, cause there is always someone to talk to.

Hugs to all
Lil Sam

The Luck of the Irish....NOT!

2010-03-18T17:29:00.000-07:00

The Luck of the Irish

Not

Well I have gone and done it now. I am in trouble big time.
Wednesday,Saint Paddy's Day was not a good one for me.
And the so called Luck of the Irish just got up and Left me to my own devices.
Not good idea.
Sailor and I are on web-cam every morning and evening.

So St Paddies Day started out with minor misunderstanding with sailor, and him telling me that I was lucky that I am getting over the flue, otherwise he would be making note of my bad attitude.

Well now it does appear that I just might not be the Brightest Shamrock in the Garden.
Because just before I signed off to leave for work,
My brain disengaged and my mouth engaged.

Not good. For I told sailor he could stuff his book.

I guess I was not really paying attention, for I did not see the look he gave me, and he said to me,
"Baby Girl, You is in trouble, big time,"

Now the average wife would apologies and keep the mouth shut..Right...Not
I have to have last word so I say," Yeah right!" and sign off.

Well my day went from bad to worse, trouble with clients, car acted up.
Went to class at 6:30 and had 2 bad coughing spells during class.
Was late home from class, short chat with hubby and off to bed.

Did not sleep very well. Woke up Thursday morning in a very bad mood.
Which is very very unusual for me.

Anyway, sailor was already on web-cam when I came on-line.
Asked him what the hell he was doing up so early.
He said I see my baby girl is not in any better mood this morning.
And once more warned me to watch my attitude.
I said Or what.

That is when I realized that I had slept in, he was not early I was late, Said oh Sh-- , have to go, and ran,

Well when I got home tonight, there was message.

" BABY GIRL, YOU IS IN TROUBLE BIG TIME, DADDY VERY ANNOYED WITH YOU"

So now I Wait for sailor to get home and back on-line.
I know my beloved Sailor man will not discuss the past few days, but I also know he will not forget.
And when I get home again, I am in soooooooooooo much trouble.
I would send him a sweet letter of apologia, but I know that would not help.

Anyone out there know how I can save some of the hide on my bottom end?

No,eh. Oh well guess in time I will have to face the music
Please keep me in your thoughts.
LOL,

Tis a tad late for Saint Paddies Day
But may this Blessing be with all
every day

An Old Irish Blessing

May love and laughter light your days,
and warm your heart and home.

May good and faithful friends be yours,
wherever you may roam.

May peace and plenty bless your world
with joy that long endures.

May all life's passing seasons
bring the best to you and yours

Hugs

Lil Sam

A New and Exciting Year

2010-03-11T19:30:00.000-08:00

WOW 2010

I have gone over anonther post, seems I have used this pixie before.

I Like Angels and Pixies, Pixies have a very special meaning for me.

Here I am in March already , sure do not know were the time has gone.

So much has happened so far this year,

First of all, I hope that this post finds all my friends, and those that I have yet to meet,are well and happy.

I visited A Marines Wife's blog today. She has an awesome blog.

Welcome my friend

Will be checking in with all my friends and their blogs soon. Have missed you all.

Please forgive me for neglecting you.

Well my husband got to Canada the middle of January for 3 days, not long but better than none.

Then I was able to go home to him in February for 5 glorious days.

We spent our first Valentines day together.

In my last post, I spoke of my friend and her question about the ocean.

Well, I am working hard to be a better friend, and to listen more closely.

My friend and I have been making more time to be together this year.

As a result we have enjoying many walks together,as well as many long talks.

I have found new ways of drawing her out, and getting her to talk more.

I explained to her, my intrest in Wicca and what it stands for,

What it means to me.

Introduced her to the strength of my beloved Ocean,

and to the Peace and tranquility of the forest.

My friend said the other day that she now understand

How the ocean gives me strength and renews my spirit.

She now also enjoys fully the peace and tranquility that we share

as we walk through the forest.

My friend and I have always shared a special bond,

But we now seem to have a new bond , one that is stronger,like that of sisters.

She now feels freer to lean on me during her troubled time

especially right now, with her husband ailing.

As for me, I am in the process of helping my roommate find an apt. that she can afford on her own.

Once she is settled then I can take care of me.

I am hoping to be able to move home to my sailor man permanently by the end of summer.

But time will tell.

Until then,

I shall continue to enjoy the adventures of life,

and all that it has to offer.

Both the ups and downs.

I will continue to protect all that I hold dear,

Family,Friends, and all of nature,

And when all is said and done

I know the arms of my sailor man await me.

And in them a safe and happy harbour awaits.

To all

Blessed Be

Last Post of 2009

2009-12-29T16:36:00.000-08:00

A friend asked me :
"Where the heck have you been these past many months"
She told me that it been said that I had been seen down at the beach alot.
She asked me how could I find such a horrible place so interesting.

Well the first thing that ran through me was annoyance.
But just very briefly, for annoyance with my friend or anyone is not allowed.
Next was empathy for my friend.
For she is not a very happy soul,
and does not see to very much of the beauty around her.

We made a date to walk and visit the first weekend in the New Year.
She headed home, and yes you guessed it,
I headed to the beach.

I arrived just as the sun was starting to go to rest for the day.
Colouring the sky in beautiful rainbow colours.
The soft rich colours reflecting on the ocean waves,
gave my heart such a lift.

There I sat, in a quiet little cove, on an isolated beach,
beckoned there by the call of the sea,
I realize that I am powerless,
I can not fight the call of the sea,
I must obey
I must be there to feel, to hear, and to absorb all
that Nature and God has to give me and to teach me.

So here I sit
listening to the sound of the waves,
the cries of the gulls,
My body absorbing the gentle soft salty spray from the ocean waves,
Enjoying the heavenly scent of the intoxicating salt air.
My eyes painting the scene before me on the canvas of my mind and my heart.
So that whenever I close my eyes, the beauty of life is always there for me to see and enjoy.

Once again I feel the strength and power of my beloved ocean,
as she lovingly surrounds me with her strength and gently teases my toes.

once more I am lifted up from the earthly plain.
I feel such joy and complete peace fill my heart and soul.

All cares are taken from me,
And the year plays out before me,

I see of my sad friend, and now knew how to help her.
I see all of the wonderful people who entered my life this past year.
I think of all my internet friends, and wish them well
I thought of all the loved ones that passed from this world to the next.
Happy that they have been apart of my life
I see the smiling face of my beloved New Husband,
And I thought of the joy and contentment that we have brought to each others lives.
And asked for many years to share this joy together.

I thought of a year filled with lots of ups and downs
A year filled with challenges aplenty.
A year filled with laughter and tears, both happy and sad.

I give thanks for this year that is about to end,
and thanks for the New Year that is about to start.

As I once more became aware of being back on the beach,
With cold wet toes
And a bright moonlit path back to my car,
I remembered a verse that was given to me many many years ago.
And until this nigh, did not mean much to me,
For I did not really understand it.
But this night it became clear.

I will share it with you,
Say good night,
And
Blessed Be
and
Meet you all in the
New Year

Yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But..today, well lived
Makes every yesterday
A dream of Happiness.
And every tomorrow
A Vision of Hope
So look well, therefore,
to this day

Hugs to all
Lil Sam

Thank you to Special Friends and Merry Christmas

2009-12-22T22:55:00.000-08:00

Special Friends

Friendship is important
to all Creatures
This post may be somewhat similar to my last post,
but I can not tell you how very much I appriciate all of you,
and how thankful I am for your friendship.

My place of peace and strength

I am not sure if it is the season, or the fact that I miss my husband so very much, that has me feeling so sentimental.

But for what ever the reason, tonight I sit here listening to a relaxation CD of Ocean waves and rereading some of my first few posts
So many changes have take place in my life since those first posts.
When I first found the Taken in Hand website, that lead me to all of you, I was so unsure, and afraid of what the reaction would be.
Never in my life have I ever trusted anyone as I did all of you.
Nor allowed anyone to know so much about me.
I am so grateful that I did. I made many new and wonderful friends during those first post.
I grew. I gained the courage to search for the true me, and gained the confidence to embrace the changes in my live, and to accept the guidance of my friends.
I said good bye to some people from the past with no regret.
Met someone very special who became my friend, and then my husband, my best friend and soul mate.
With the welcome and acceptance that I received from you, a fair sized crack appeared in my protective shell.
It did not take my new husband long to completely destroy my protective shellcompletly, and to teach me that I was not alone, and never would be again, and that I was truly safe with him, and always would be.
My Sailor and I are two of a kind. both very stubborn, and strong willed.
He is the only one that knows how to handle me. He knows my stengths and weaknesses
We may be apart now due to his work, but the bond that we share strengthens each and every day.
We both thrive on challenge, and this is just one of many that will come our way.
I look forward to sharing those challenges as they come about.
But in the meantime, I want to Thank all of you for being a very important part of my life thus far,
For sharing my growth and sharing your lives with me.
Merry Christmas to you and yours and the Very Best to all in 2010

My first year of Blogging

2009-12-18T18:48:00.000-08:00

My first year of Blogging

I have been through so many changes this past year,
Grown so much, met so many wonderful people.

Last night and tonight I have been enjoying a trip through many spanking blogs,

And I got to thinking about a night 1yr and 7wks ago, when I found the Taken in Hand site.

I got reading that site, forgot about time and forgot that I had to go to work in the morning, LOL
OOPS, it was 4:30 am and I had to be up at 6 for work.
But I could not get enough of that blog and the many sites that I visited from there
I remember thinking that night/early morning, that there must be something wrong with me.
Here I was, suppose to be a mature adult. So what was I doing searching for spanking sites.
Why would any so called mature woman want to be spanked or feel she needed to be spanked?

Well that site made me feel alittle better,.

From there I visited many blogs, with the first one being Bonnies MY Bottom Smarts.
What a fantastic site that was, and how it got my mind and imagination working,
I was so excited to learn that there were others that enjoyed or wanted to be spanked.
To know that I was not as weird as I thought I was.

From there I visited Spanking Pixie and Journey to the Darkside, .
I just could not seem to read enough.
What wonderful and fantastic people I met on these sites.
So open and honest about their needs, wants,and their life style.

Finally on December 19th 2008, I created my blog and posted for the very first time.As I reread the first post of my blog.
I remember how much I shook as I typed it.

Thank goodness for spell check.
I made so many spelling mistakes.

I was excited, yet scared.
Hoped I would be accepted yet so very sure that I would end up being flamed.

I might have been 57 yrs old, but I felt like a very naughty child.
It took me three days to get up the nerve to check my blog.

I was so surprised at the warm welcome, the comments and encouragement I received from so many people, that the tears fell like rain.
I am still amazed that I started a blog, let alone shared so much of myself with people I did not yet know.
I have not posted all that often, but when I have, I have always been accepted for myself.
When I have felt confused or alone my friends have always been there for me with encouragement.
Some of you even email me privately and shared words of wisdom with me. You have all helped me grow.
I think however, that I did my most growing in February of 2009.
I have reread my posts, and all the wonderful and helpful comments that were so lovingly given.

With all of your help, my beloved ocean, and the fighting between the lil devil and lil angel sitting on my shoulder, I have been able to stay true to myself.

Thanks to the gentle guidance and encouragement that I received from my friends, I have made the best choices for me. My life is full, with my family,and friends, my new husband and his family, who have excepted me as their friend.
It sure has been a great year.

Just Venting

2009-12-15T23:36:00.000-08:00

Heavy Seas

My thoughts and emotions are as turbulent as the stormy sea in the above picture.
I am so worried about my guy.

Hubby and I spent a wonderful time together on Wednesday of last week,.
While we were enjoying our time together, I realized that he was in pain.
He said that he has been in pain for the past month but that the last 2 weeks have been really bad.
The way he discribed the pain, it sounds like kidney stones.
I wanted to go back to the states with him. and see the Dr, but oh no, not my sailor man.
So Thursday morning saw a worried me on my way back to my Canandian home and hubby back to the tugboat.

He called later that thursday night and said they were on thier way to Alaska,would be gone 14 days.
Never heard from hubby again until tonight Tuesday the 15th.
Due to very bad weather he was not abe to get through on the phone.
Said they were in a cove and had to dtop anchor due to snow, and heavy winds and seas
He did not sound good, and when questioned, he said he has not been doing well, and was in alot of pain.
I am very thankful to the tugboat captian, who is keeping an eye on my sailor.
He has promised to go to the Dr. when he gets in hopefully on the 22nd
So I will be taking time off work to join hubby in the states and make sure that he is looked after.

I am still so amazed at what he and I share, and at how deep our love is.
What I felt for my first 2 husbands was nothing compared to what I feel for my sailor man.
Well , thank you for listening, and just being afriend
Hugs
Lil Sam

An Unexpected treat

2009-12-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

I Got a call from my beloved husband late tues night. He was going to be in port wednesday morning until thursday morning. Could I steal away from work for that time period.

Due to my work and the wonderful people I work for and with, I was given the time off.
So off I went early Wednesday morning to meet the ferry, with the blessings of my clients.

Oh how I wanted to jump the fence as I saw him come down the ramp way.
Just to feel those arms of his around me once more.
Well he was finally through customs, and we are finally together,
And once again I am surprised at how much love,joy and happiness a heart can hold without bursting.

After all the hugs and smooches, it was off to find a place for lunch.
During lunch, my loving husband reminded me that I was in trouble.
I could not think why or what he meant, that is until I saw the look in his eyes,
My heart did a double flip, for there was no mistaking that look.
It was a look I had come to know on our honeymoon.
But I still did not know what I was in trouble for.

Well my appetite just went out the window, my mind just kept running ahead of me to our room,

Soon we were at our room, and hubby reminded me that for the past 6 days, I had been very grumpy when he phoned. He reminded me that he had warned me to watch my attitude or I would be in trouble. Guess I was not listening. (nothing new for me, it seems)

That hubby of mine is so fast,and it was not very long before I saw the errors of my ways, for I very soon found myself over his knee.(much to my delight)
He has a way of teasing that soon has me begging to be spanked,.
And he is so good at it, and it was not long before I was promising to be good and watch my attitued.

I remember thinking at one time," I wonder if I am getting into something I am going to regret?"
Now, I am a happy and contented, pampered and well spanked wife, and I love every minute of it.

If this is the joy that we share when we are together for short periods of time, I can only imagine what how great it will be when he retires and we can be together all the time.

A Very Happy and Contented Lil Sam

2009-12-07T20:32:00.000-08:00

My Oh My, Oh My,

So much has happened since I last posted, I almost don't know where to start.

But before I go any farther I must apologies for neglecting all of my friends who have guided me so tenderly , since I joined you family.

You took a confused lady under you wing and helped me find my way, you never ever judged me, always made me feel very comfortable and welcome.

From the bottom of my heart I thank each and every one of you.

I really must thank Hermione and Bonnie for their comments on my last post.

No Hemione at the time of my last posting my Sailorman Mr B and I had not yet been intimate. Each time I brought up the Spanking subject,in our conversation, my Sailorman(Mr B.) would change the subject.

Mr B and I spent 15 glorious days together the end of June and beginning of July.

3x during our time together, my Sailorman got alittle carried away while we were making love and gave me several firm spanks,much to my delight. It was not til the 3rd time it happened that he actually believed me and realized I did indeed enjoy the spanks. He just was not listening to what I was saying to him.

Our time together ended way to soon, I can home to Canada and back to work, and he back to the ships in Alaska.

Well things went from good to FANTASTIC. In August Mr B and I were married at sunrise on the beach, here in Canada, and headed home to the US to pick up the RV and go camping for 2 wks. As we on our way home, Mr B said he had a surprise for me once we got to our campsite.

Well I know what I was hoping for, but I could not read his expression this time,which is unusual.

Well, me being me, I had to start teasing him, Sailorman said quite or I would be sorry, and Lil Sam being a very stubborn Lil Sam, did not listen nor see the look, LOL

The long and short of it, once we got camp set up, Much to my pure delight,
I very quickly found myself over his knee, receiving a bare bottom spanking.
Our lovemaking afterwards was out of this world,

Well that was the first,and by no means the last. My sailor man sure does know how to take care of his Lil SAM, in all ways.

And now when I tell him how much I enjoy his spankings and the way he makes me feel, he actually hears me,

So needles to say, I am one happy newly wed. We still talk about everything.

Although there are times that I will send him an email that starts " Yes lover, It is one of those emails." then he knows that he has to think about what is there and either talk to me or email me. sometimes this is the easiest way for us to get a message across.

My Sailorman has been out on the tugs since end of Oct, hopefully home in time for Xmas, time will tell. It is hard not seeing him every day on the instant messenger, but at least we talk for a few mins on the phone daily.

Well best I go, but I just had to share this part of my new life with all of you, as you have already shared so much of my life with me thus far.

Thank you for being there for me, being my friend, for not judging me, but always guiding me.

Your friend always

Lil Sam

Help Please

2009-05-09T16:34:00.001-07:00

HELP, ME PLEASE

I need the help and guidance from my wise friends, I am desperate.LOL
My sailor man (Mr. B) is almost too good to be true.
If my messaging does not sound right to him he is on the phone.
He always seems to know when something is bothering me.
I can not believe how much we have in common, right down to our warped sense of humour.
He is the only one that has ever been able to make me blush, and take great pleasure in doing so.

He always seems to know when I am,
He’s such an adorable cheeky brat.
We chat every night for at least 2 hr mostly via Instant messenger.
He phones every other night, we chat every morning while I have my coffee before leaving for work.
Last week I had 3 morning that I had to be up at 5:30, (which is 4:30 his time)
The first morning, I was floored to see him online and buzzing me at 5 am his time, just so that we could chat and he could send me off to work with a hug and a kiss and a wish for a good day,
My sailor man was up with me every morning, and every night at 9:30 his time he was saying" it is bedtime my little cup cake, I’ll see you in the morning." And with a hug and kiss he would be gone.
I look forward to our evening chats and sharing my day with him, and sharing his day.
He tells me things about the boat that he is on, in a way that I can almost visualize them. He sends picture of the boat.
And most of the time what I have visualized is correct.
We are going away together for 4 days the end of June, to a seaside resort.
I can hardly wait to feel those muscular arms of his around me in hug that definitely will not be a friendship hug.
The problem is His Hands.
I can not keep my eyes of them or my mind and thoughts.
He has awesome hands; I love the feel of them as he rubs my back.
I keep visualizing them on my bottom and how well they would cover it.
My sailor man is not into spankings.
He once said jokingly that I needed to be put over his knee, and spanked.
My reply was,"Yup, sure do, bring it on baby."
He told he was kidding, and that no woman should be hit in any way.
I tried to tell him that spanking was not exactly hitting, (believe me I know the difference)
But my sailor man He just shut door on the topic.
How do I bring the spanking subject just one more time?
How do I explain to him what it is I need from him.
Outside of this subject, there is nothing absolutely anything that we can not and have not talked about.
I look forward to you guidance, my dear friends
Thank you for being there for me.

I need help and guidance from my wise friends, I am desperate.LOL
My sailor man (Mr. B) is almost too good to be true.
If my messaging does not sound right to him he is on the phone.
He always seems to know when something is bothering me.
I can not believe how much we have in common, right down to our warped sense of humour.
He is the only one that has been able to make me blush, And take great pleasure in doing so. He also always seems know when I am,
He’s such an adorable cheeky brat.
We chat every night for at least 2 hr mostly via Instant messenger.
He phones every other night, we chat every morning while I have my coffee before leaving for work.
Last week I had 3 morning that I had to be up at 5:30,

(which is 4:30 his time)
The first morning, I was floored to see him online and buzzing me at 5 am his time, just so that we could chat and he could send me off to work with a hug and a kiss and a wish for a good day,
My sailor man was up with me every morning, and every night at 9:30 his time he was saying" it is bedtime my little cup cake, I’ll see you in the morning." And with a hug and kiss he would be gone.
I look forward to our evening chats and sharing my day with him, and sharing his day.
He tells me things about the boat that he is on, in a way that I can almost visualize them. He'll send picture of the boat.
And most of the time what I have visualized is correct.

We are going away together for 4 days the end of June, to a seaside resort.
I can hardly wait to feel those muscular arms of his around me in hug that definitely will not be a friendship hug.

The problem is His Hands.
I can not keep my eyes off them or my mind and thoughts.
He has awesome hands;

I keep seeing them warming my bottom.

I am sure they would cover my bottom very nicely.

I love the feel of them as he rubs my back.

I can only imagine how great they would feel on my bottom.
My sailor man is not into spankings.
He once said jokingly that I needed to be put over his knee, and spanked.
My reply was,"Yup, sure do, bring it on baby."
He told he was kidding, and that no woman should be hit in any way.
I tried to tell him that spanking was not exactly hitting, (believe me I know the difference)
But my sailor man He just shut door on the topic.
How do I bring the spanking subject just one more time?
How do I explain to him what it is I need from him.
Outside of this subject, there is nothing absolutely anything that we can not and have not talked about.
I look forward to you guidance, my dear friends
Thank you all for always being there for me and for you guidance

Dreaming Of

Reaching Out

2009-04-14T16:17:00.000-07:00

REACHING OUT

TO LIFE AND FRIENDS

Due to family illness I spent much of March away from home at my sisters.
With my sisters husband’s passing on March 19th , it meant abit more time away, with no free access to a computer. As my darling sister is very nosey and very straight laced.
.
I have to say that I have really missed all of you. I’ve missed being able
to read all your stories, I've missed the friendship that I feel each time I
visiting one of your sites .

It seems that for now at least, my blog is destined to be about
the changes in my life.
And how very fortunate I am to have such caring friends to share it with.
To say that life has been interesting of late is an understatement.
However I am enjoying the adventure, and I am very thankful that I have all of you to share the adventure with.

With all that has been going on, I have managed to have some
time alone at the beach, a few times the weather has been stormy,
much to my delight. Not only because I love a stormy sea, but also
because it means I get to have the beach all to myself,with the exception of the sea gulls.
As of late, I have been investigating my Irish back ground,
and their involvement in Wicca.
Have gone to a few Wicca meetings and have found them very interesting.
Have met many new friends within that group people.
I have learnt that without really realising it, I have used some the teaching of Wicca in my dealing with my seniors.

Since February 26th. I have been emailing with a gentleman , "Mr B" from Washington.
He is a chief engineer on a freighter.
His emails are fantastic. When Mr B talks about the place that
he is at, one can almost see the things he is talking about.
When he tells me about the stormy weather and the extremely rough
sea, I can almost smell the salt water and feel the spray.
The pictures he sends me, match the images in my mind.
Mr B. has told me so much about his life and his family that
I almost feel as though I would know his family if I were
to suddenly meet them on the street.
Well after about 3 weeks of steady e-mails and IM’S, I finally agreed to exchange phone Numbers.
He has phoned every night since.
Well Mr B said that he was coming to visit in May, as he also has some good friends in the next town over from me.
Easter Sunday Mr B said he was coming to visit and take me out to lunch, Said he would be here on Monday.
Easter Monday I get a phone call from Mr B, he was in town and it was lunch time.
We had lunch together and then spent a great afternoon together,walking the beach, and kite flying. It is amazing how much alike we are, and how much we have in common.
We finishing the day of with a very long,relaxed and enjoyable supper,
after which Mr B drove me home.
.
A hug and a kiss on the cheek, he was headed back to the States,
as he had to be aboard ship headed for Dutch harbour Alaska Wednesday
morning for the next 6 weeks.
Mr B phoned me Tuesday morning (april 14) just before I left work, just to wish me a good day and to tell me he would be back in 6 wks time.

I know that I will not hear from him until about Friday until the ship gets to where they are going.
This will be the first time since Mr B started phoning that we will not chat at night.
I did not realize until now just how much I looked forward to our nightly chats.
Is it Friday Yet?!

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2009-03-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

Thank You
This will be a very short post this time, as I find myself at aloss for words.
What a delightful surprise it was to receive the friendship award from Hermoine.
And all I can think of to say is Thank You!
The Rules to accepting this award:
"Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text in the body of their award.

I want to nominate my friends at
Secret life of Andrades Girl
A New Beginning
Spanking Good Time
The Naughty Side of K
My Bottom Smarts
Dante’s Paradiso
About Spanking
Jflame’s Journey
Heart and Soul
Hugs to all
Lil Sam

The Influence of True Friends

2009-02-24T19:35:00.000-08:00

The Influence of True Friends

I have spent more time of late beside my beloved Ocean.
She seemed as restless as I have been.
But there is a difference between her restlessness and mine.
For her restlessness has a purpose as her powerful waves rushing in to shore and back out to sea.
Mine was born of just plain loneliness and being lost for awhile.
Then I finally admitted, that yes I have been away from the ocean far to long. I desperately needed to sit quiet and hear the answers as they are whispered by the gentle breeze that is caused by the waves. And listen to my heart, for the heart does know.
I thought of my last post, and of the war that raged on for a short while, til my decision was made.
I realised a sense of peace that filled my mind and soul once the decision was made.
I then was able to accept my worth and and realised that what I wanted for myself and for a future partner was not unrealistic.
The type of person I am was brought home to me tonight just before I got home from work.
"This morning I filled in for a co-work with a family whose husband suffers from brain injury and paralyses.
Now I was just filling in for 2 hrs.
The wife call my boss and asked that I be oriented so that I could take over the night position while she goes away in 2 wks time."
I truly feel humble and honoured.
So I spent alittle more time by the sea, and once again felt the familiar grounding of my feet, and the gentle calming of my soul.
When I got home I reread my last post, my last angry email from KT, a grateful one from his wife.
I read all the more than welcome comments from my wonderful friends.
Yes, one day I hope to have a loving relationship that fulfills not only my needs but also those of my partner.
A partner who will be the centre of my world and of whose world I will be the centre of.
When that happens I will surly be sharing it with all of you, for you have all share so much with me already,for which I am truly grateful.
I also re read this verse that was given to me over the weekend, by a wonderful client that is paralyzed from polio.
Just had to share it,

"The world in which you were born is just one model of reality.

THE OTHER CULTURES ARE NOT FAILED ATTEMPTS AT BEING YOU

they are unique manifestations of the Human Spirit."

So Yes, the Angel may have won, (and the poor wee devil may still be pouting alittle, but she’ll get over it) but the Angel did win, and it is because of the wonderful influence and gentle guidance of good friends.
God Bless all
Hugs
Lil Sam

The Angel Wins

2009-02-21T08:53:00.000-08:00

If I knew how to do it,I would change my picture. I would change it so that the cheeky Lil devil was over the Angel's knee.

I have been emailing with a friend for quite some time.
KT's emails are so thrilling, and the spankings he wants to teach me everything I want to experience. However we did disagree on the Humiliation thing, as that is something I am not into. I have been Humiliated enough over the years.Didn't like it then and I know I would not like it now.
Anyway, we met a few times for coffee and the chemistry was definitely there. We have set up a few play date, but I always seemed to find a reason not to be able to attend.
I have met KT"s wife, she is ill and longer able to be a part of the things they once shared, and she is okay with me being apart of KT's life.
Well last weekend I was very restless,very unsettled. So off I go to the Beach.
As luck would have it No One was there, Just me, along stretch of isolated beach, the gulls, and glorious sea rushing into shore, and a slight wind.
As I sat there on the rock, feeling the ocean spray and becoming one with my surrounding, all the issues that have been going round and round in my head for so long all started to fall into place.
I could even hear the angels laughing at me and saying "See we told you, you have been gone to long."

I thought of KT and what he was offering. Oh how I would love to say yes, and experience so many new things.
But then the fight broke out on my shoulder between the Angel and my LIL Devil.
For awhile I really thought that LIL DEVIL would win,
But, NO, I started really listening to both sides. Both had good points.
But, when all is said and done, I have to be true to me. And stolen moments from time to time with some one who is not free is not for me.
A discrete relationship is not what I want, nor need, I have found that those types of relationships are a dime a dozen. And definitely not for me.
I thought of all the new friends I have made in the spanking community, of which I am still just a lurker.
I thought of all of you, and your blogs, and the wonderful life you share with your partners. And I realized that that is what I truly want.
I thought of my Dear departed hubby, oh how I miss him. We had a good life together. I am sure that had I found this wonderful group of people before he passed away, that we may have been able to bring part of it into our lives.
What I had with him I want again with someone, but I also want more from my partner and I want to be able to give him more.
I realized that when I got home I would have to email KT and try to explain that our play date would never happen and explain why.
So the Angel won and the Lil Devil lost out for now.
Oh how that wee Angel on my shoulder giggled as she did a jig and
kicked my poor we Devil in the butt.
I left the beach with a much lighter heart,and the spring was back in my step.
Yes the angels were right, I have been away from my precious ocean far to long.
For it has always been the strength of the ocean that has brought me back down to earth and helped me get my feet firmly planted once more.

I'm sure I could hear her giggling all the way home.
My wee Devil has been very quiet of late, but I know that she is plotting some sort of revenge.
I have to thank all of you my friends as well. You have all helped me grow so much this past 4 months. You have all helped me come out of my shell. Made me realize that I am not weird.That I do not have two heads.That my feelings are very normal for me.
Thank you for being such wonderful caring people
Hugs
Lil Sam

devil or angel

2009-02-08T14:48:00.000-08:00

Well I finally have a weekend to myself, sort of. There is so much at home that has been let go with my crazy schedule. It is hard to believe that January is gone, and I am lucky if I get to do any Lurking let alone anything else. Oh well such is the life of a care give.

As you see I have finally added a pic to my profile, and both the devil/angel apply to me from time to time.

I really do need to find more time to get into mischief. I am being called alittle angel way to often of late.
And incase I do not get back on before Valentines Day
Happy Valentine's Day to All

I got the following Birthday Meme from Naughty Side of K's Blog, It made be do abit of thinking. Hope you enjoy it, I did. I find it very difficult still to sing ones own praises,

1. Pick your month of birth
2. Copy& paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below) …
3. Next to each trait in your birthday month, do you agree or disagree? Explain why.4. Link back to the person you got the meme from -I got it from Naughty Side of K

FEBRUARY:

Abstract thoughts.
Sometimes

Loves reality and abstract.

I do enjoy both, life should be a balance of both

Intelligent and clever.

I have my moments, I like to believe I am intelligent, and I can be very clever

Changing personality.

I am able to change my personality to fit the circumstance or company I am in

Attractive.

Average on outside

Attractive on inside

Sexy.

I like to think I am, I know I was in my hubbies eyes

Temperamental.

Occasionally, but usually level headed

Quiet,

I am some times

shy

I am until I get to know someone

humble.

yes I am

Honest

I am honest,

loyal.

I am very Loyal to my friends and especially my partner

Determined to reach goals.

Have never been more determined to reach goals as I have been this past 3yrs. Have met alot of goals and have more I want to meet.

Loves freedom.

Yes I do love and need a certain amount of freedom

Rebellious when restricted.

Yes I do rebel when restricted.

A type of taken in hand relationship would be good for me

Loves aggressiveness.

Yes I do like aggressiveness on both my partners part and my own

Too sensitive and easily hurt.

At one time I was very sensitive and easily hurt, and always hid it,

I am no longer overly sensitive, nor am I easily hurt, I guess I grew up alittle, when I am hurt I no longer hid it. I will usually discuss it with whomever is involved.

Gets angry really easily but does not show it.

I do not get angry easily, and I show it

Dislikes unnecessary things.

This is true to a point

Loves making friends but rarely shows it.

I enjoy making new friends, however I am alittle shy at first.

Daring and stubborn.

I am sometimes very daring. I am also very stubborn when I get something into my head. Must be my Irish and German back ground

Ambitious.

I have become very ambitious these past 3 yrs

Realizes dreams and hopes.

Have realised some dreams and hopes of late, and have many more that I hope to realise

Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure.
At times I am sharp, I enjoy entertainment and leisure, and enjoy sharing both with my partner

Romantic on the inside not outside.
I am very romantic both inside and out

Superstitious and ludicrous.

The Irish part of me is Superstitious to a point and I am also ludicrous from time to time

Spendthrift.

I am not a spendthrift, I have always had to work very hard for my money,and have always had others that I had to support,I am not easily parted from my earnings

Tries to learn to show emotions.
I have no problem showing emotions, and I do show emotions

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas.Difficult to fathom.Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Where did January go

2009-01-30T21:43:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that this month is almost over. All I have done this month is work and shovel snow. Haven't even had much time for being on the computer. So tonight I have done alittle catching up, with lots more to do.
I was in a very cranky mood tonight when I got home, but reading some of my new friends blogs put me in alittle better mood.
But to be honest, I am very jealous of all the lucky people who have someone to share life with, and are enjoying being spanked.
That was my wish for my birthday but guess that will not be happening.
Oh well, such is life. I will make one goal how ever, and that will be one year as a non smoker. I can not believe how easy it was for me to quit. I have tried many times before and only made 4-5 months with lots of pain. This time I seemed to have just breezed through it, and without any cravings. I finally have a weekend off, so will spend part of it catching up with my new friends and their blogs.
I know I have said this before, but the people who are part of the spanking community and just so wonderful, so real. I am so thankful that I stumbled upon Bonnies blog, which in turn led me to all of you.
bye for now. see you on your blogs
Hugs lil sam

2009 and hopefully many new experiences

2009-01-01T12:59:00.000-08:00

First of all wishing all my many new friends and their families a Happy New Year and the very Best in 2009
Well for me 2008 was a very interesting year full of ups and downs.
With many goals met and some not,but those that were not met, I will work on.
Met alot of new friends who have encouraged me on my new journey,and who have helped me understand the changes.
2009
I look forward to making and meeting many new goals, making many more new friends.
Hopefully meeting a new spouse, one with similar interest to mine.
It would be fantastic if I were able to celebrate in February, my 58th birthday and 1yr anniversary as a non smoker,
with a new spouse and my very first adult spanking.
Well it is time to go shovel more snow. The best to all of you
lil sam

2009

2008-12-26T21:26:00.000-08:00

First off thank your to all the wonderful people that left comments. Your opinons and encouragements mean alot to me.
Hopefully one day I will be able to write about my first experience.
When that happens I will certainly want to share it with all you wonderful people.
As for Christmas, Santa has made sure that I have been kept busy at work.But it has given me alot to smile about, just knowing that I have brought some peace to the lives of others.
For the next 6 days I will be working 10pm to 6 am, providing a much needed relief for the family.
I have enjoyed reading alot of different Blogs and have alot yet to read and learn.
The best to all of you in the coming year

2008-12-21T17:02:00.000-08:00

December 21 2008
It has been snowing off and on since the 14th, and I have been grounded since the afternoon of the 17th due to bad tires, and to much snow.
And it is still snowing, I am getting cabin fever. I want out. I am starting to feel like Garfield hanging from the screen door and looking out.
As a result of being grounded, I have had way to much time to visit my favorite websites,
Taken in Hand, My Bottom Smarts, Journey to the Darkside, and Spanking Pixie.
The more I check out these sites, the more I realize just how much I have missed out on,and how good it feels to know that I am not weird or have a sick mind.
Last night I read Bonnie's topic of"" What I want for Christmas. "
And of coarse it put my mind into over drive.
I can't believe I actually had the nerve this morning to leave my comment along with the other comments.
These websites make me realize just how much of a sheltered life style I have lived, and how much I have missed out on.
To be completely honest, I have to say that a Taken in Hand life style is closer to what I need.
I am a very physical person. I prefer / need physical work as a posed to say desk work.
I use to enjoy a good wrestling match with my sweetie.
So I know that I would never willing go across my ,partners knee for a good spanking,
especially when it is really needed because I am in a pissed off mood and looking for a fight.
My partner would have to be willing and able to Take me in Hand and take me over his knee or what ever by force, with me kicking and fighting all the way.
This would sure to be alot better solution to problem,as apposed to the silence that was usually the norm whenever I got into a snit .
I am sure that a good spanking would have righted the problem in no time atal.
However, by the same token, if my partner was just in the mood, or felt the need to be giving me a spanking, he could very easily get me to go willingly over his knee,
IF
He were to stoke,rub and tease my butt. It would not take much for him to have me asking to be spanked.
My darling DL use to tease me that way,but he would never spank me, I Finally gave up trying to get him to give me the spanking I craved.
Well that's enough nattering for now, I want to post this and then check out "spanking pixie's" site alittle more.

A little more about Lil Sam

2008-12-19T23:01:00.000-08:00

Who lil Sam is: and some of what she likes

I am a single female, 57 yrs old, who needs a spanking.

I am a Nurse Aid and spend alot of time away from home as I care for people in thier own homes. Doing shifts usually of 4 days and nights in and 4 out. However, I sometime do longer shifts.
I like to walk on the beach in all types of weather, love stormy seas, walks through the forest.

I Love trucks of all sorts, especially old trucks 1940's and up or older, I like big trucks, 18 wheelers.
Really Love motorcycles, have just gotten my motorcycle learners license.
Looking to buy a motorcycle in the New Year.
I prefer listening to music rather than watching TV.
My favorite music is country, however I do enjoy a wide verity of music, depending on my mood and the setting.
I have only been in vanilla relationships, (3 to be exact).
First one was 21 yrs with a very abusive husband.
2nd relationship was an affair I had with M (that lasted 4 yrs) near then end of my marriage and for a few years after my husband and I split up.
M had been a good friend for many years, one that I always had to work at keeping at arms length, I was never to sure just what he would do if I truly relaxed around him when we were alone.
Well I found out shortly after my husband and I split.
M came to visit and I decided to relax and see where things went.
Well,before I knew what was happening M had me on the table minus my panties and giving me the only oral sex I had ever had.
M took me to a heights that I never knew existed.
M really enjoyed giving oral sex and never seemed to get enough.
He did not really enjoy receiving oral sex.
M was not into spankings either, he thought the idea was weird and sick,subject was never brought up again.

Our affair ended when DL and his wife split up,(1995) which was 6 yrs after my separation.
There was no way that I would ever cheat on DL>

DL, had been my best friend for 22 yrs and was soon to become my partner and soul mate.

We were best friends,soulmates and partners for the next 12 yrs.
I soon realize that spankings of any sort were out of the question with DL as well.
DL said that he had never hit a woman and was not about to start now. Besides the idea of it was just too weird for him. All things aside DL was still a great lover, just the same.
My sweet one passed away in 2006 and for the next year and a half I did nothing but work.
Then one day I over heard a young girl telling her friend about the spanking she had received from her boyfriend the night before. And how much fun it was.
Well that conversation awoke longings that I thought I had buried long ago. Guess not buried deep enough.
When I finally got home again a week later,it was onto the Internet for me.
BOY, did I ever get my eyes opened. I found sites that I never knew existed.
I read about people enjoying things that I thought were just in my sick, warped little mind.
I visited such interesting sites as "Taken in Hand", " Bonnie's site> My Bottom Smarts", " The Journey to the Dark Side" to name but a few.
I wish that I could IM with one or two of the ladies from some of these sites. I have so many questions.
How wonderful it is to realize that I am not as weird as I thought I was, that there are ladies out there that truly want to be spanked and truly enjoy spankings, and many other thing as well.
For the past 5 - 6 months thoughts of being spanked never seem to be far from my mind.
The very thought of being taken over the knee, having my skirt raised and panties lowered, and knowing that a spanking is *coming next, and that there is nothing I can do about it really turns me on.
After visiting some of the afore mentioned sites I have realized that my fantasies are not so weird or sick after all.

I would also like to be taken in hand by another woman.

I have fantasized for years about what it would be like to be completely controlled by another woman, to be forced over her knee or what ever, my skirt raised, panties lowered and to be soundly spanked by her. To have her remove my clothing, to feel her hands and mouth posse my body. To have to show her my gratitude, under the treat of another spanking if I don't.
Well time for bed, alone again.